__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Friday, February 28, 2003

[[ today ]]
woke up at 6 am. rushed like mad. bathed and packed bags. and i forgot my bloody wallet. =\ went school tried to mug higher chinese. but couldn't focus. -.- got booked by xinyi for low socks. not gonna buy rgs socks 'cause she didn't say i need to buy school socks. she just said need to change socks. so yep. not gonna buy new rgs socks. =)) and then was telling melissa mrs pey's gonna scream at me real soon. class com members and she just warned us yesterday she didn't want another booking from the class. guess what. suefaye got booked yesterday and i got booked today. for socks. how fun. =))

then higher chinese was that freaking test. deaded. very. left a lots of blanks. =/ aiya. whateverr. didn't think of passing in the first place. skipped recess 'cause i've only got 22 bucks left. quite crap. luckily i put my pocket-money today into my pocket. then grace returned me 12 bucks for the bio fieldtrip. so yep. 22 bucks. crapped to michelle tan. =\ sigh. then physics prac. just anyhow lamed around. sms-ing again. i feel like dropping my handphone into a bucket of water or something. won't stop vibrating nowadays. -.- oh and naomin brought the 2002 ri yearbook to class. so we looked through it. then i showed suefaye those math immersion guys like danen, allan, weixun, weicheng, zhihao and alvin, some eeky fellows harry and ben. funny man.

then assembly. this guy came to talk to us about being happy. i think. and he sounded so much like newby. blablabla HAPPY. aiya whateverr.. but he's damn zai in drawing. so cutee the cartoons. then kennethtan talked to us about the ora cards. and he was as corny as ever. and freaking hoy and pm were talking to us about our attitude and behaviour and whatever shit lar. then pm cried. saying how disappointed she was with us and she thought we are the only bunch that she's ever met to be that rude and that bloodyhell she was ashamed of us. and she cried and walked off after shouting and screaming at us. then to backtrack yea. the whole thing about assembly this week was about being happy. and she's a choice of being happy or not. so if she isn't happy with us, it's her choice, so she shouldn't blame us. and her attitude towards us ain't very good either. so what's the point i'm trying to make? she's crap.

english was about newspaper. yadayadayada. then chemistry. went through discussion. she never ever called 16 and 14 before. me and suefaye. and the other jac always kena to answer some crap questions. lucky mee. then after school geri gave me this sweeet letter. lurve her sosososo much. =) went to 204's lockers and gave sherlyn and avonne their v-day + b-day present. then went to the hall to check out the o's results. but went down to eat instead. =)) went up again to check out. whoa. ohmygosh. audrey's one of the top scholars?! unbelievable. and rgs got like 3 outta 6 top scholars in the whole of singapore. that's bloody cool. then went up to homeroom to do chem assignment. then crapped to the prc scholars and told them some jianbianwendati. laughed my ass off i tell you. =))

then math club. HAHAHA. unbelievable. i got like what?! 14/28 for that selection test. i passed and ohmygosh. i got like a few marks higher than some of the scholars?! =)) then the highest score for the scholars is 19 if i'm not wrong. hey. so i'm not that bad actually. ego-ego. and the ego tripped. almost died. nearly fell while walking out busy sms-ing stupid stephanie. and today i'm so like a clumsy retard everywhere. then talked to steph awhile on the phone while going back home by mrt.

reached home at 7. shitters. so slacked on sofa and watched television. then she came back. like okay. so she came back. fine. then came online a little while. then she started complaining about me ignoring what she's asking and ignoring her when she asked me if i wanna eat dinner. fine.so i ate. then put my plates in the sink to soak first. 'cause it's all dried up. i ate too slow. then she asked me if i'm gonna wash it. i said later. and she screamed the fucking hella outta me what's the problem with my attitude? like what the fuck is her attitude everytime? or even now? like i said a bit louder got attitude huh. and what about her when she's screaming at the top of her lungs. so i talked real loudly back. and she was bloody angry about it. so was i. so she shouted back. and i screamed and shouted and stared and glared at her like i don't know what. fucking furious. i really screamed for bloody once. and shut her up everytime she wanna say something.

then i cried. fuck. if only she knew how i feel yar. if only she knew i'm seriously very tired with everything now. if she knows that i'm bloody irritated with everything. i need not her saying she loves me. i know i need her but just leave me alone when i wanna be. don't intrude into my privacy. and stop checking my fucking phone. i know she always does. like what's her problem. i know she won't be reading this. but even she is, she probably won't understand half the stuffs here. so like whateverr.. am i that untrustable. -.- jac doesn't need a bf so she can just relax and chill i won't get one yar. freak.

and when she's angry with one thing. she will go on scolding to the next thing. and the next thing's done. she will talk about the one thing again. what's her fucking problem. have had enough. eek. and she did all these either in the morning or at night. ruin the whole day if she's scolding in the morning and spoil my temper even more badly when it's at night. ohwell. anyway. real glad that danen's class's like damn zai like that. all a1 for chinese os except one guy who has got a2. not bad either. it's our turn this year. uhno. /..\

heaven by your side;
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