__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Sunday, March 02, 2003

[feeling] [[ tired.. ]]
[listening] [[ from the heart - another level ]]
[thinking] [[ i shall try to be happy ]]
[wishing] [[ weekends are longer.. ]]

didn't expect myself to wake up at 10.30. like what's wrong with me these days? not my usual self. =\ so lazed around. nothing much to do. everyone's dao-ing me except my dear jeremy. jeremy was sucha poor thing. he accidentally talked a bit loudly to my mum, and was scolded like shit. and i was scolded indirectly as well. like whateverr. i'm used to it. suan as much as you want. i'm not gonna care. and that's how jeremy got scolded too. poor guy.

ate this bigbig bowl of porridge for breakfast like for once finally in a very bloody long time. bloody full. =)) oh but i'm still scared of porridge. =\ reminds me of what happened in beijing during math immersion. -.- 3 days worth of tasteless porridge. almost died.

somehow. i think i miss math immersion more than obs. but the most that i miss is 20402's class chalet. no maybe not. maybe i still miss math immersion more. i miss danen too somehow. nobody else. weird. okay. i talked a lotsa cock to him online everyday. but the thing is i missed talking to him face-to-face now. -.- i'm such an idiot. and when i got to meet him that time for lotr. i didn't speak a single shit to him.

he's sucha nice chap seriously. like a nice elder brother. very mad. very corny. very.. i don't know. he's just bloody nice. okay. maybe mad people think mad people are nice. but mel doesn't really like him a lot. i don't know why. and it's very heart-breaking to see danen sad. i mean online. he likes mel. he's trying hard not to. he's trying to forget her. whateverr. and i'm not supposed to tell anyone. i promised not to. but i didn't keep it for very long. very guilty. seriously. but it's like. mel hates him and he likes mel. quite pathetic lerr. -.- and i'm like this by-stander looking at this stupid situation. doing nothing. -.-

but anyway. talking about danen. he's the guy who changed my opinions about ri guys. at least sorta. used to think all of them are despos or whateverr.. but danen ain't. he ain't interested in girls that much. partly because i guess the lack of confidence in his appearance i think. but even then. if he really likes a girl. he's bloody shy and quiet about it. never ever flirt. take mel's case for example. and he's damn nice to crap to basically. every now and then when i'm bored online [which i always am]. i'll go "HIIIII DANEN!" and we just start talking cock like that. can even talk hokkien online. talk anything under the sun. i don't think we really hide anything from each other seriously. just talk all the craps. can re-talk the craps if we want to. gee. went around irritating people from the math immersion too. asking everyone who they like and stuffs. funfun. =) and besides that. he taught me math. like if i got problems with math just run to him. he will teach till i understand. so nice riight? -wink- seldomly think a guy's that nice really. maybe should ask him to be my korkor next time. =)

heaven by your side;
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