__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Thursday, April 24, 2003

[feeling] [[ screwed up ]]
[listening] [[ yi qian ling yi ge yuan wang -4inlove ]]
[thinking] [[ maybe i will draw out people i know ]]
[wishing] [[ physics test to never ever come. ]]

[[ tuesday ]]
first lesson's geography. and we were supposed to discuss and debate on genetically engineered food. basically it's major stoning session. i just sat there and stared at nothing. and when newby came near. then started talking a little. =\ okay. i'm beginning to think that geography's quite okay. but lotsa information to study. however, easy to digest. but what about the exam format. i hope i won't die.

chemistry. continued discussing that worksheet and i guess angGAYleng finally knew that *yay. there's a jac in the class who's sitting in front and angGAYleng's gonna picked on her for every lesson now on. =\ she's a total bitch. farkup. she asked me this question. and i gave her a whole loads of craps that i don't even know what i'm talking about. and finally after she finished going through those worksheets, she asked about the discussion questions. and i lied to her that i didn't bring 'cause i didn't do at all. forgot to. and she went round checking the others. how irritating is she.

and emath was like. okay. i guess. but it's quite screwed when you think about it. she taught us some stuffs the day before the test. how to get into the brain and how to digest. so cheem one. and her ass kept on brushing against my elbow and arm. like maybe she enjoyed it or something. but the thing is i don't. and she just hafta do it again and again. how disgusting. *eww.

bio was prac and we had to use some animal's liver and potato and cook them and dip them in something i don't know. the liver looks gross. uncooked or cooked. both's the same. =\ and it's like. *oh yucks. dammit. so bernie was the brave one who did almost everything. and i'm like the idiot sitting beside screaming and being so hysterical. and we were saying it's so like a cookery lesson. cooking liver potato sooupp. =) just add sommore stuff and it'll be nice. and when i looked at the liver. oh yucks. okay. and i'm thinking of quitting bio. like *yay. okay. that's madness.

and then afterwards. it was theory lesson. so i was sitting there looking at her. got very bored. really. and i was sitting beside meixian. then i suddenly thought of ora. they were thinking to make those artistically-inclined peeps to draw portraits of people i think. and i was like. okay. sounds fun. after somemore i quit art. don't feel the stress anymore. but i was thinking if i'm up to it. so i took out a piece of paper and i just anyhow drew her. *whee. quite looks like her. so meixian sitting beside it. saw it. like *whao. she showed it to angeline and huili. then almost the whole class saw it. started laughing. okay. some thought it was funny. some thought it looked really reaal. then lunch i showed it to melmomma. and ziing. and beatrice. very farniee..!!

and higher chinese was on tonggao? something like that. and some new words. very dry. couldn't really concentrate. kept on fallnig asleep. was darn hard trying to keep myself awake. nowadays i don't know why. okay. i know why actually. slept at 2 AM every night. won't i just die like that. ohwell. guess i will catch up with my sleep on weekends. -nodshead- arh. and melissa and suefaye. ponned school. didn't come. so like i don't know. i felt so quiet. or rather. it's so quiet. hmmm.

later on it was amath. our class ain't very responsive. so wongtokcock didn't really like it. but it's like no one really understood modulus function in the first place. so everyone so silent 'cause they don't know how to answer her question. and like we tried a lotsa times last time telling her we didn't understand. but she just said the same thing again. not very helpful you know. =\ okay. and it started raining cats and dogs. okay i think it's elephants. rained so heavily. and like i'm so lazy. got umbrella. but i didn't want to use it. 'cause i dont wanna to hold on to a wet umbrella in a crowded damn train. looks stupid.

so anyway. stayed back till five. half the time was spent finding sherlyn's and avonne's letters to me. just couldn't find them and was like whining here and there. dragged angeline to find it with me. then she went away. and zhonglu helped me to find it. =) okay. so guess what. it's stuffed inside in the amath textbook. and i took out all the stuffs in my bag to look for them. great. =.= and it was like raining non-stop. so i started crapping to everyone left in the room. err. okay. chenjing and zhonglu. zhonglu introduced this yi qian ling yi ge yuan wang by 4inlove and wo deng ni by rene liu. damn nice can. =) and then chen jing was trying to finish her homework. emath assignment. and i decided to do too. copied wangjing's one. =) *heh.

after that we walked out of the school. and at mini-amphi. there's some rock-climbing competition taking place. junli's there. with kenneth tan too. so she asked me to ask him about ora. so reluctantly i went over and talked to him. i asked if 20402's considered a class? and would it be acceptable for us to set up a stall? and we went to say something like we have to look at your proposal first. so i'm like. okay. but tell me whether if 20402 is considered a class or not? and do we have a chance to set up one stall? then he kept on saying about proposal. i'm like finee. then he added this. "or do you want a definite answer like a no? or do you want to do the proposal and then see if you stand a chance to get a stall?" *rolleyes. if i didn't have any questions. i won't have asked you? and how am i supposed to know what the hell are you thinking. so i walked off. and junli's like. i forgot what junli said. but the moment i turned my back. i started complaining about kennethtan. that bitch.

and i'm like so guilty for making chenjing and zhonglu wait for me for 15 minutes at i don't know where. and in the end they went off then i slowly walked out. i'm really sorry babes. and i was damn hungry. so decided to eat out. went macs to eat dinner alone. how sad. how lonely. *aww.. okay. great time for stonation. =) oh whateverr. and when i was on the mrt train to go home, zhonglu smsed me. she's really really funny. =) really nice too. *muuahh.

then reached home. came online. kennethnah? [arh. yet another kenneth] showed me some happytreefriends.com thing. oh man. damn sadist. damn gross. but damn funny. okay. and i showed my brothers. they were like *eeks. *arh. and *hahahahahahaha. really. but like. a bit not realistic. and the brain squashed. *eeyeer.. then called meixian at 12 midnight. how dumb. to wish her happy birthday. okay. maybe i'm just that sweet. =))

[[ yesterday ]]
social studies's like crappy as always. anyway. ashlyn and i agreed that leearharh looked good for once. =) like i don't know. maybe her hair? i don't know. and she was sneezing away. and she just got back from an mc? and everyone was like saying. did she get sars? *hurhur. but anyway i told ashlyn. "is it like i didn't see her for weeks and i missed her that's why i think she's looking better today? or what?" right. and i can't remember what she was talking about. =\

higher chinese. had tingxie. i tell you i'm so dead for it. yes. i need a re-tingxie again i bet. =\ *sobsobs. laoshi sure will kill me one. i can't remember like thousands of words. great? very. short-term memory. can't remember what she taught us too. ohwells. then she let us off early for pe. 'cause she taught finish what she wanted to.

pe was like there's discrimination? something like that. that's what alinawee did. those in sports cca were supposed to run 4 rounds. and the rest 3 rounds. but i think it should be the other way round seriously. like the sports cca people ran and trained their whatever they need to have for napfa test and the rest needed it to train maybe? ohwells. but whatever. be contented jac. you only need to run 3 rounds. so shutup woman. =\ then we learnt how to play floorball.

[edit] so there's discrimination again. from the tallest to the shortest. and like bernie's the tallest. wangjing the second. meixian the third. eh woman. don't be too happy. i'm catching up. =) fourth is weiling. but i still think i'm taller. oh crap. whateverr. so fifth's me. and sixth's jiayan.. *yay. like i'm taller than jaiyan already. she was taller at first i think. =) so why the hell does peypey wanna me sit in front for?! like all of them are behind the class. and i'm right in front. kanasai. [/edit]

did a lot of that in primary school. even had inter-class competition. okay. but i lost all the skills i've learnt before. crap. but last time we used to play guys and girls mixed. damn fun. and obviously the guys are the once running for the balls. 'cause they just ran faster than us. =\

i still remember it's house versus house. so topaz and emerald always fight together. and our group only had like lester who's quite.. short. and enoch who's quite.. loserified. =\ oh and he's the one whose father knows my father and brother knows my brother. and i know him. how great's that. i still remember vividly what my father asked him once, "so you two have been in the same class and school for 6 years. are you two still in the same school and class?" when i was in sec one. i can die laughing. okay. did, in any ways, he look like a girl?! and do i look like a guy? i think he went to a guys' school. and he migrated after that. heard he came back to singapore again. ohyes. my dear mum saw him. it's always my mum whom recognises my ex-classmates. i wonder why.

okay. anyway. after that was recess and then emath. she went through the coordinate geometry and i knew nuts about it. =\ ohshucks. so in the end i think i understood a lil. by myself and ashlyn. how great's that. applause yea? *hurhur. and she was so funny that she left the formulas on the board till it was like okay. she found it before we started. but everyone stared at it. quite helpful actually. and we did the test. bloodyhell a killer. okay. maybe not. time-consuming again. and freaking hell when i figured out what to do for question 6. time's up. what the. irritating can. i left question 6 blank. okay. not really. i wrote one equation thing. so maybe i will get one mark? then if no careless mistakes. i'll get 30/40? hope so.

after that. did a little of the ace thing. okay. and mrs pey grabbed me and we did the consumption of electricity and money estimated per month for the class. like fine. with money. treasurer. sounds logical yea? =.= and it was already like 1.45 PM? and she asked me to go down to the staff's room to write down the stuff on the board. fine. i did. and i was so late. and all i got was a thanks. okay. fine. accepted. *rolleyes. so decided to pon library and did physics. and half-way through. she came to the class again. with me mel and michelle there only. and she was saying what the earth day song thing. we might be disqualified. so mel was saying big deal. but yea. i agreed. then she gave us this loong talk about must have don't know what attitude. so the best thing for that situation would be to agree with what she's saying. =)

and later one michelle gave us coupons and i went out with mel again. went to bk like the second time in the week. so i was like saying whether will our something clash again. then peasao see peabrain. haha. and no she didn't. but she saw her seniors though. whateverr. after we ate in bk we went to wisma and walked around. not really. when to precious thoughts. for her to buy some birthday present. *hah. then we went to popular and i bought some hair accessories. my hair was like going bonkers. =\ *eww. then we decided to be guai and looked at the guidebooks. and she bought her stuffs. and we went to sembawang music centre. i wanna buy cds. but i never ever bought cds i don't know why. always download marr. -wink-

and decided to go home. smsed mel and she sent me some stupid lame jokes, jiayan regarding meixian's birthday present and zhonglu. =) reached my station and got off. was walking to the bus interchange when i met azimah. long time no see woman! *teehee. and first thing everyone would say is always "omg jacqueline. you're so tall. really. ohmygosh! you're like much more shorter than me when you're in primary 6!" *hurhur. who won't look or be taller when she grew more than 20 cms in nearly two and a half years. then we exchanged email address. so yep. that's about it. i realised how stupid i was. i went to delete off siuhong's and yukming's and esther's and huixin's and victoria's and who else handphone numbers! so now i only have chong's one. =\ *sigh. okay. i'll ask anthony for their numbers. again. whateverr. so loserified. =\

okay and anyway. happy birthday meixian and wangjing yea? *muuah. jac lurves yoo. not yoo meixian. =p

[edit] forgot to mention that yesterday. ohyes. i was like online chatting. then suddenly his nick appeared on the screen. so i'm like. whatever. he just signed it. won't talk to me.. then i looked again. this conversation was flashing. so i clicked. and guess what. yes he talked to me after like what seemed like years. oh ack. so okay. i'm like smiling retardedly in front of the computer. yes. nobody's watching. i'm the only one awake. so he asked if i have audio galaxy and about what programme i used to download my songs. and after that. err.. he said goodnites and went off. haiya. okay. it sounded so retarded. =.= oh well. okay. i'm having second thoughts about crushing him. i might not even crush him afterall. maybe i just think he's nice. ohcrap. [/edit]

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