Sunday, May 04, 2003 [feeling] [[ stressed ]] heaven by your side;
[listening] [[ mine all mine - shedaisy ]]
[thinking] [[ tingxie. geography + social studies. ]]
[wishing] [[ next week will never ever come ]]
it was labourday. and as what bernie has wrote in my organiser. the day when all women go into labour. =.= oh whatever. and like because i overslept the day before. and i slept till 10?! then i started regretting and i started cursing. and i was like why the hell didn't my mummy wake me up?! guess what. i cried like a shitty retard. i don't know why i cried. i cried for a lotsa stuffs. like why can't i always wake up? why can't my mum successfully wake me up for once? why must i go and sleep and now i can't go out with cheryl, geri and jiarui? why is it so that it seemed like tests and tests again and again? tingxie too. why am i so stressed? why did i quit art? why? why is my supposedly love life so screwed? when others are like maybe nice and all? why am i so hard-to-get? why am i not contented and just maybe accept something that's there but why am i instead yearning for other stuffs that's just so impossible to attain?
and i cried for a whole solid hour. irritating everyone. i didn't bother to stop. i just went on sobbing and bawling. my dad shouted. but do i seemed to care? nah. i'm just too engrossed in self-pitying. finally decided to stop and accept this as my bloody fate. woke up and bathed. but still not very reluctant to accept. so i jerked that washing machine don't-know-what-pipe and slammed the bathroom door and my gramma screamed at me. i shrieked back. and seeing that i was shrieking at her dear beloved mother, believe me, my dad got really angry and shouted back. i shouted back even louder. and no one dared to provoke me further. *hurhur.
checked my phone and geri and cheryl decided not to go out. so i'm like whatever. what a bad way to start my damn loser day. =( so i had to check out what's left in the kitchen. as always they thought i would sleep till maybe till 12 noon just in time for lunch. but they were so very wrong. =| and sheesh. campbell soup again. i'm tired of it. can someone save me and change all those stupid soup to something nicer?!
okay. i borrowed this princess in the spotlight book from the school library. apparently it's the second volume of the princess diary. =)) ohman. i think it's reallyreally nice. haven't started reading yet. so yep. it's already a miracle i borrowed that book two weeks ago. so.. we'll just wait and see if i'll read this book. yup.
anyway. i realised i haven't been penning down what i've been thinking lately. which is quite sad. i'm totally feeling like shit but what can i say. zing said i'm getting too personal on my blog. which is true. and it's like more and more people know the existence of my blog. which is no good. =\ but i really wanna just say anything i want. else what's the point of keeping a diary? and i haven't been updating really regularly everyday. it's like always one or two days later and i start to blog like together. which is like so cramped up and i don't know. a bit retarded. =\ yea.
and anyway. danen said he flunked his amath test. which is really unbelievable. really. and half his class flunked too. including weixun, allan and they were saying chin didn't do well either. the test was like 50 marks for full score. and danen got either 16 or 19. he's this chao-shenkia in math and he.. failed?! i mean it would be really acceptable if someone like me fail my math test please. not him. never. but he proved me wrong.
[[ friday ]]
have been going to the canteen lately to buy ovalteenies! i think i'm still having cough. like after so long. ain't very good. tsk. must stop eating junks. and i drank vitagen also. *wahahahaha. that i think is really mad. =\ went back to class and tried to do the chemistry discussion. apparently i lied to her that i finished mine just that i forgot to bring that time. but they were doing this other worksheet so i did it too. luckily she didn't check the stupid damn chemistry discussion and went on with that worksheet that i did. *yay. then i tried to learn tingxie in chem. i actually left the damn textbook on the table and blatantly copied the cheem words out and she didn't even know. maybe she noticed. but i think she's acking care of me already. hopeless case.
oh and before that. there're like 4 prefects whom came into our class and conducted a spotcheck. i would have died if i didn't change place can. i'm like pull my socks. changed my belt just in time. tiptoed a little 'cause my socks are like really low. =\ yup. then *phew. i didn't get booked. i can't afford to get booked two more times okay. i get dc man. and peypey will hate me for life. =( and the 4 prefects coming in were like really scary. like they just stomped in kinda thing. =\ and i think a few prc scholars got booked. poor thing. and meixian got booked for socks i think. poor her. and i suspect that the prefects didn't check me 'cause i was standing there obviously quite bookable. but this prefect assumed that the other will do so. so she went off. then the other thought she checked me and she went off too. =\ funny. and before that i was like sms-ing in class so i'm like thinking is it cher that prefect saw me sms-ing in class and wanna booked me for that or something? so i quickly hid my phone can. was sms-ing some friend. apparently he wants to talk to my dear meixian.
then it was supposed to be recess but we had our english lesson instead. =| we had our compre test and she ate into our recess to prevent us from having to stay back some time and do it. they wanted it to be like exam-like. so yep. took the test. so cheemified man. it's something on eccentrics and weirdos. so i can't call other people weird now. it's not right. they're just eccentric. =) okay. i'm eccentric too. *hurhur. it was like so not do-able can. don't even understand it. i'm so dead for my compre. for my english. for my everything bascially. i was like do and do and do. *whoaa. at summary i've got like a lotsa time. so i just really slowed down and wrote slowly and the timing was just nice. time's up when i stopped writing. *hurhur.
so after that walked to the toilet with meixian and michelle and started crapping and bugging michelletan more about the scandal. *wahahhahah. like after that. now even meixian knows it. and i need a really major bitching session now so i shall bitch to my blog. i can't believe yinjia's that.. wild. maybe that word ain't very appropriate. but how can she go out with some guy that crushes her best friend?! i mean it's her best friend in the class somemore?! and she was irritating enough to irritate me and meixian off. she didn't do her geography stuffs and that pissed meixian off. she pissed me off in kayaking and obs. like what the fuck. and she's not even.. pretty or anything or even presentable to go meet a guy. i mean. look. i'm not trying to be mean. but please. i would have puke my ass out if i'm the unlucky guy. okay maybe i'm still biased against her. whatever. but if i'm her. i would have at least see my face's alright to be shown. like maybe not more than a few pimples. and no eyebags. *blah. and nice hair. and please. she hunches. and she's short enough. *eeyerr. a disgrace. *tsk.
then anyway. we reached class it's already like the next lesson. the next bell rang. so yea. we went back to our place. and like laoshi came in and a lotsa people still not up from the canteen so we sat down and started pia-ing damn tingxie. and i'm like *whao. lotsa cheem words. dead. and jac on the other hand's not scared of cheem words but those easy words. die man i tell you. and bernie blames me for not letting her sit with her darling jac. oh whatever. laoshi gave back our last tingxie too. and i failed miserably. like 21/100. ohman. *sigh. i'm really like disappointing her man. but i think it's about time she's gonna get so gek with me and just give up on me. then later on don't need to pass up yuwenlianxi and yuebao. and she tested some one oral. the rest were supposed to do this worksheets on 2a and 2b words. bernie passed some sweets to other jac. then she was nice also to pass one to me. yup. and ate it. *hurhur.
then it was bio. and bio i didn't listen to her again. then according to karen's blog. melissa didn't bring her nametag that day. and melissa was talking away with suefaye. so she tried to call melissa but apparently melissa was wearing karen's nametag so she was staring at her nametag and calling her karen! alamak. she sure can't remember our names and faces for nuts. stupid old fussy woman. then it was angeline. and i was reading some book so i'm like really funny trying to hide the book. yup. the princess in the spotlight book. damn nice. and i was like laughing to myself. and jac was so amused by that. finished like 60 something pages really fast. =) yea man.
then school ended and like i tried to stop meixian from going off but she said she really need to and said some stuffs before going off. so i'm like what. stuck?! *hurhur. went toilet again and i saw yining. and she was hiding from me i don't know why. and melissa and suefaye came out and suefaye ka-jiaoed me again. went into the toilet and saw zing and parsley inside and i was like. what the hella are you two doing here?! they're supposed to be like on the third level instead. and they said they'd got social studies extra lesson later on. poor thing. *aww. go there just to listen to leekimlan arharh half the way through. *tsk.
hate bloodydays. so heavy somemore. *bleh. went down to have my lunch and met poleng and shuwen. forever sitting there. *hurhur. and met bea and ziying so decided to be extra and sat with the 308 people. then halfway eating everyone gone. so i went to sit with geri and serene and zing again. then they went off soon too. then i was sitting there thinking. ohshucks. i've got damn library meeting and i ran all the way there. hoping that it's not 12.45 that the stupid meeting start but 1.45 instead. and i was lucky enough. ran up saw missliah. asked her if the meeting started yet? she said no and introduced me to the sec ones as the future millionaire wife. *hurhur.
waited for quite long. because of emily i think. the chairman what to do. she had some test. and someone was swearing she's gonna fail. so evil. and xinyi came late too. 'cause she'd got history test. i pity the history people. always having a test each term. and geography like slackslack one test per semester. *whee. but it seriously felt like we're on some stupid damn end-of-year every end of month. so scary but i guess that's the stress you have for upper sec. bloodyhell. and anyway the meeting was about the library week i'm like totally shutting myself up after i heard that. so.. boring. can't they have some interesting stuffs. and what library-ink? fullashit. ohwell.
left the meeting half-way and went for math club. and stupid emily thought i was trying to slack but she realised that i'm in math club and let me off. but is it really unbelievable i'm in math club? and was it unbelievable too that i was once in aep?! i had to everytime say. yes. i was from aep and i'm in math club. and they will go so shocked and ohmygosh. so zai. i mean what's their problem. a fluke getting in the club the group the whatever doesn't have to mean i'm zai okay. *ugh.
anyway in math club i wasn't listening to doctor chua's lesson again. i sat with yanxia and lijieqiong. with hanzhang and zhonglu in front. and lijieqiong and i got so bored we started our lame jokes again. and later on zhonglu and jieqiong started teaching me hakka. so it was really fun.. =)) and the only one i could remember now is this "sar nao, ci ga [m] di, qiu mo loin gong!" it meant stupid, don't know what you're saying, don't anyhow say. cool man. and they said i picked it up damn fast. and i sounded pro too. ain't i just so smart? *hurhur. anyway now i understand a little bit what they 're saying. more or less. which is quite good. 'cause i just learnt a lil in math club within like one hour? yup. and i realised hokkien in china ain't really the same as our singaporeans' one. *hmmm. i couldn't understand yanxia and yanxia couldn't understand me.
so i went popular and bought the bear for denise and went home. chose the one without joints but with the teeshirt one. hahaha. stripped the naked. call me perverted or whatsoever. i don't give a damn. it's 'cause i'm giving that bear to denise and no way i'm gonna let the teeshirt have "be my love" on it. went home and bathed and plopped onto the bed at 6 PM. *whee. so nice a feeling.
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