__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Friday, May 30, 2003

[[ this week ]]
this week was rather fun too. first it was monday. went out with geraldine to bk and then met vanessa and yinjia. met mel and then zing. walked around with her in level one looking for that matrix reloaded poster i think. yea. but there's none there and we were just stoning inside this shop for quite some time. looking out for our names and everything. it's funkae. i think i'm gonna go there soon to get some stuffs. heh. going home with vanessa's always fun man. we were laughing and laughing and talking craps basically. talking about who in our class looks like she's got bf. and about lotsa stuffs. =)

then wednesday had duties and was like dying and begging the seniors to vote for me. and they grabbed this opportunity to bully me. i was like really nice and everything. for once i did something in library. i mean. yea. usually i just stoned around or either that doing counter duty or doing some processing alone. like some loser.. probably scanning some book-covers and everything. and wednesday i did the sell-exam-paper-duty and some processing. ain't that *wow. cause usually if i have that sell-exam-paper-duty. i will just refuse to touch any processing duty, saying it's not my duty today. i seriously don't think they will vote for me and like my group's so small. well. oh and missliah was so funny and amused. *whee. now i have missliah's hp number. she's gonna send me nice smses if she has any.

and how could i forget that stupid jiang lao-shi that bastard who took half the class for the dreaded oral. he gave me 21/30?! like whatthefuck. he's mad. he's insane. he's a fucking bastard. he.. he snatches from us what we wanted to talk about, interrupted us, and then gave us bad grades. like what the hell is he doing?!

then thursday newby was quite nice. i mean usually she won't tolerate late work and just mark it late and everything. and she was in a great mood that day i assume and we were like haven't done anything for this tourism in singapore worksheet. so someone asked her if we could pass it up before lunch ends. she was like. i'm in a great mood today and i shall let you all pass it up before the school ends today. hand it into my locker. nice eh.

and anyway. went for library election. i think i might get a chance to be in the committee.. quite a number of people is voting for me and xinyi. but i'm still thinking that xinyi will get the chairman position. but nevermind i guess. the more i worried, the more i wanted to get it, the more disappointed i'll get if i don't. so yep. i shall just ack.

went to ps with steph and had fun. we went to watch what a girl wants. ohman. IAN's darndarndarn cute. i mean. gosh. soo sweeet and all. i wish i have a boyfriend like him in the future. or maybe now. crap. i won't and i can't and i shan't. and she's like really what every girl wants to be. maybe not. but she's got everything she wanted. a nice family in the end, a nice boyfriend. plenty of money to spend. she's funkae. her parents are funkae. and good-looking. man. the show totally roxs. much more than matrix. i don't understand the story at all. call me shallow or what i don't care. but what a girl wants was so much easier to understand. and so awwww.. i think i cried a lil.. when she left her dad's house in a car with her momma. and the part when her dad won the election i think and he was giving a speech when he decided to give that up and wanted something else more important in his life. and he went off. and punched his fiancee's dad face and broke up with his fiancee. and anyway. her hair's nice when she let it down. and/or when she tied them all up. i mean. when she bunned it up when her momma's performing in some wedding dinner and she's the waitress.. she got these two "feelers". not very nice-looking. and we realised that a lotsa people in rg lurve doing so. =\

it's like the eve of my birthday. so avonne gave me this bear early in the morning. so darn cute. thanks von. and brenna gave me this sweet flower and smsed me. =)) zhonglu gave me this small envelope at the end of the lesson and asked me not to open till the next day. i mean all of these just makes my day. =) and steph treated me to the movie and the nachos! thanks steph. =) and it was like so fun and late and i was supposed to have sleepover in mel's house with sue. but sue can't make it so we didn't sleepover in the end. but well. it's still *whee. happiest birthday eve ever. and michtan, geraldine, jiarui, beatrice?? and parsley wished me a early happy birthday too. =)

woke up quite early and there's so many smses. avonne, yanxia, biyi, mummy, baiwei, zhonglu, wangjing, chunz, angeline, sally, ashlyn, sweesan, steph, melmomma all wished me happy birthday through smses. =) felt so loved.

so after i woke up i had kwaychup for breakfast. and stone in front of the computer listening to songs. and just surfing around and updating my blog. went to bathe at 12 PM and started to have cramps. dammit. so wrong timing. and anyway. it was really unbearable. and i was like lying on my bed for almost 45 minutes on the bed and decided to get up and get changed and took a taxi down to town. met them at heeren at 1.50 PM and sue wasn't there. so mel, zing and i went to cine and bought the movie tickets. but anyway, before that, zing gave me my birthday present! =))) it's apple strudel! *whee. and mel didn't get me any. she's gonna get me something soon i think. went to buy the tickets and it was like *whoa. selling fast. and we had like the fourth front row and the extreme right. went to marche and ate boneless chicken leg with zing and mel got softshell crabs. met anqi and huili with their friend there. wished me happy birthday =) and anyway, before we went marche. mel saw peabrain again. she's damn funny i tell you. and peabrain. wellwell. i think peabrain's mad. i think he keeps on pestering mel man. sick. sue arrived and we finished at like 3 PM. was like so mad rush. and mel card got some funny problem. =\ apparently they scanned wrongly.

went back to cine and watched the show. it was helluva funny! lame too. but well. it's reallyreally nice and worth watching. and did i mention. i almost tripped and fell in the cinema 'cause it was so dark and i couldn't see where i was going and it's like the cinema's filled totally. =\ it's so embarrassing. with a big paper bag somemore. but anyway, back to the show. he's like so damn joker. and everything. and the part with the power of god was like so funkae and cool. walking on water, and just everything basically. and teaching how his dog to pee properly. and then his gf finding a dog peeing in the toilet with newspaper. and that evan guy! man. that part was really funny. whatthehella he was talking about. but i think the show was rather meaningful. it was good. like what a girl wants too. and the joke about bird and bush. ohman. funny.

then anyway we went to heeren. wanted to take neoprints. but in the end we didn't probably my fault. 'cause i was not really enthu and was rather sian and we didn't want to queue and other factors lar. went to 37 degrees and wanted to get jac her yellow pencilcase but it's outta stock. whatever. walked to taka and suefaye got her food and zing got her drink and i got myself sushis as dinner and i asked sue to buy me this bigbig can of cheezmania for my birthday. =)) met sally there and she was alone. she went out with some of her friends in the morning and met julia and karen and karen just left when we saw sally. wellwell.

came home with lotsa food. =))) bought a bottle of sugarcane juice and ate with my sushis and got myself a can of coke and drank. *shiok. came online and read blogs and update my blog. and online vanessa, petrina, shuwen, serene, denise, sherlyn, meixian, tiancai, zhihao, danen, weixun, glen, alvin came and wished me happy birthday. *whee. so nice of them. =) and meixian just called and sang a happy birthday song to me. how sweeeet.. i'm dying with all those sweeetiepies. *hur.

this is probably my last entry in my blog. i've decided to end it. nothing much to update in my blog lately. and i think blogging has taken up a hella great amount of my time. i need the time to sleep and understand what's taught in school. angeline's right. our main focus now should be studies. and i don't wish to offend any people with my thoughts too. i think i might be too straightforward about some stuffs and there's always this possibility that people out there misunderstand and misinterpret what you try to say. and if i update my blog just how the readers want it to be, then the purpose ain't there anymore. and i think quite a number of people know the existence of my blog. and i don't wish that it would be so publicised or anything. i just would rather end it now, than get into more troubles with my blog later in the future. and what's there to update everyday. you get what i mean. seldomly it's exciting or anything. like only maybe yesterday and today were so nice. and i don't have any interesting stuffs about me either. which is really pathetic. i might just blog once in a while. or just add some songs i lurve i guess. like what i used to do to my opendiary last time.

[edit] but whatever it is. if it's gonna be permanent. well, at least it started happy and ended happy. started on valentine's day this year. and ended on my 15th birthday. two of the few days i felt so loved by everyone. and it's a short nearly four months maybe. but it's four eventful months really. i've been happy, i've been depressed. i've been mad and noisy. i've been quiet and sane. i felt hurt. i felt loved. practically everything. and i'm starting to love 302 more and more each day.

why fit in when you were born to stand out?

that's what ian said in the boat to daphne in what a girl wants, how true is that. well, i guess that might apply to me too. so i'm not gonna care what people out there's gonna think about me and who i am. 'cause i guess that's the only reason why i would stand out. and that if they hate me for whatever reason, it's just because they want to be like me so desperately. [/edit]

so yea. toodles guys. i seriously hope that maybe i only get temporary blog withdrawal symptom or something. hope this is something temporary. or maybe it's just me again pms-ing. dammit.

heaven by your side;
x 11:58 pm