__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Thursday, June 19, 2003

[[ 10/06/2003 - 11/06/2003 ]]
woke up quite early. probably because of smo. goodness me. i actually woke up early for it. i guess i really didn't wanna to screw it up that badly. at least not that badly. it should be much more better if i read through the textbooks huh i guess. anyway. mum made a big fuss over making ic. yes ic! so? i wasn't in the mood for it. especially like we didn't even have a decent photo of me recently. not say a passport-size then. i'm like so pissed off by the fact that she said she wanted me to make it on wednesday instead of like tuesday. hello. at least inform me like a day or so earlier. 'cause i'm having some stupid stressed up smo and she's making a booshit outta something else and irritating me and i absolutely had no mood to do anything.

and when ever will she get the idea that she's not the only one on earth that's busy. i'm busy too. so don't try to plan anything for me and then deciding not to do it later but bring it forward or anything and screw up all my plans. and then later making a din saying that i'm just some asshole not being obedient and stuffs. what the heck man. and couldn't she just understand that i have this major shit to do in the afternoon?! and i'm like reading last-minute? great. she didn't know huh.

but anyway. dad drove me to school and i wasn't exactly very late. just right. went to the canteen to have some temperature check. and met sarah and jenny on the way. they were like laughing and saying "so you didn't oversleep arh?" and i replied "obviously not!" met melmomma in the canteen and she was like "jac!!" and the prc scholars were like "jac!!" too. so funny. anyway. melmomma said the same thing like "i'm amazed that you didn't oversleep. what time did you wake up today? 12? or 1??" and i replied. "i didn't oversleep. why would i anyway. =p i woke up at 9? yea. 9." and then she was like ohgosh.. so early!

met huizhen, charmaine, xianwen, manyan too.. the math immersion gathering! *hurhur. lijie and harpreet went for the test too. i'm like. why the hella did you wanna take the test for?! if it wasn't like i'm in the club, i won't have taken it and wasted my money and at the same time maluated myself. they said they took it just for fun?! that's craziness. oh and anyway. the paper was tough. as usual. what's new anyway. if it's not. then it won't prove that charmaine sia is a total genius. and it's another major stoning session 'cause i don't know how to do. i'm not like last year. i actually paid a lil attention to the lessons every thursday. i'm quite bo-chup this year. partly 'cause i gave up totally when i think that there're gonna be charmaine sia, the sec 4s and the prc scholars in the same competition. and i was like playing a fool. i remembered what mel was like saying. if you've no answer, just put 0. sure will come out one. so i put one of them 0. the rest i couldn't be bothered. it's just too difficult. and it's almost time too. and when we handed it in. my answer sheet was like blanks here and there, while charmaine sia's paper was like filled totally. i'm like so freaked out by that. she's too smart for it i think.

went home pissed and all. the whole week's fine except for like this freaking day with a freaking smo to take. =\ whatever. went online. like *duh. as usual. danen was saying that one of the questions was what that really happened in real-life. the thing about english league. and anyway i was like asking what's the answer for that and he said 101. oh gosh. i was like soso happy. at least i'm quite sure that my one question was right. but there's another one that i'm quite gek with. i bloody hell went to look at the wrong area. =\ got it wrong. darn. should have knew it. it won't be that easy to solve.

got out of bed early again the next morning. library committee meeting. it sucks totally sometimes to be in the committee. be it class, house or cca or anything. but well, blame me for needing the points so desperately then. *ugh. went to school exhausted and sianified. just stoned there when everyone's talking. and once in a while attempting to gek indu with my nonsense. xinyi and i were like trying to do so oh-so-desperately. we were communicating in chinese scolding her and all. and she doesn't understand a single shit. one day, indu, i will scream at you. i will definitely! you just see the pissed off version of me. she saw the i'm-not-in-the-mood-to-talk-all-because-of-you attitude though. i'm like. no smile. no anything. and was quite freakish looking 'cause it's not the usual me? yea.

they were talking about some booshit anyway. too tired to take note. i just. well, listen more than talking. usually it's the other way round. sometimes it's nice to have some changes huh. realised emily and xinyi got lotsa similarities. guess that's why emily likes her so much. and she keeps on siding her. i mean, she blames me for not being responsible and all those shit when xinyi's supposed to do all those shit with me, whateverwhatever, and i think emily sucks more than she rocks. i don't know. it's just my opinion. she's not great as she seems, and everyone sucks up to her probably because she's the chairman that's why. how disgusting then. okay. maybe i'm talking nosense here just because i think she didn't vote for me. but isn't that just so human. you don't like her when she doesn't do something the way you wanted her to do so, and that you suck up to her and think she's everything nice that you're not when she's someone with the authority or whatsoever. the whole world sucks for sure. it's gonna be so true, if it doesn't then everything would have fallen here and there and everywhere.

and furthermore, i'm quite angry with the fact that when i said i wanna go down to the canteen to get some food so that i don't look so dead. and i need my coke anyway. i'm dying without it. and then everyone started to treat me like some servant. asked me to buy this and that. and they're not being nice somemore. they were like wanting this particular brand and won't take it if it's not. they should just get their butts off the seats and followed me down then huh. and okay maybe i did agree to help them buy, but they can't be so picky seriously. what the fuck.

went to lavender mrt station anyway later on to meet my mum to make my ic. some ica building and we were supposed to fill in some sars declaration forms. ohman. i'm so having a phobia of those forms. =\ whoever in charge are just being a bunch of creeps over-concerned about some illness that only killed some people all over the world. they should be fussing over aids or something then. *sigh. took my photos anyway. i think the first take sucks. 'cause my fringes were too thick. so i took another time. man. the guy must have hate me. oh and the second one was nicer. and prettier. =) but it cost 10 bucks just like this. =\ ic's just once in a lifetime. so i shall just *ack. yup.

what's with people and what they think about rgs. people from rgs doesn't have to mean she rocks or something. she might just suck like me. and she isn't oh-so-great or anything seriously. i think they are just fluky to get in, at least some of them is. the rest are like they are too smart. and what's with this stupid ruining reputation of rgs if you do this and that in the public. like if the image is that important, then can just jollywell get some toots into the school and not us! and i'm so sure they're not gonna ruin the school's image like we do. and as what those stupid prefects and teachers and principals have said, we're in rgs to study, not anything else. so don't try to be "in" or anything with low socks and belt and i don't know what else. yea. they said it's just studying there. so why the hell did they bother about other stuffs like what we wear or anything else?! gee.. sometimes they are just so booshit.

*hur. chill jac. went to bishan with my mum later to eat beef noodles. i'm so addicted to it. and my mummy don't really like beef noodles. but she thought the beef noodles there is great! =) after that it wasn't much of a mother-daughter bonding like what steph said, more of like. i-want-this-so-you-should-buy-this-for-me thing. i know i suck in attitude. but i seriously ain't in any good mood. but anyway. we went to 37 degree, a lotsa shops before we went op in j8. and mum saw this white and pink berms and thought it's nice. well, i can't deny it ain't. but she added on, "i think it looked so sweet!" and she wanted me to try it. i'm like okay. while thinking, i'm not that sweet as before i hope you realised. and i guess i grew fatter!! there wasn't any size 28 anyway.

so we went orchard instead. and i bought the white and blue version instead. bought another tee for dad as father's day present and a tee for my younger brother. the shirts were rather pretty. *teehee. both chosen by moi. and we went to the stadium and got my brother a waist pouch. i don't know why he need it. but i thought it was rather sucky to have one pouch hanging at the waist. quite cheap though. =) after that, went to buy sushis for dinner. *yumyum.

heaven by your side;
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