__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Saturday, June 21, 2003

[[ 12/06/2003 - 13/06/2003 ]]
how could i forget to mention that i got another pair of earholes. i mean, i was thinking about it 6 months ago in beijing and i was talking with melmomma about it. 'cause she got one? and i was like cool. i wanna one too. not 'cause of her. but i already wanted long ago. just that meeting her and seeing that she has one too made me wanna it so eagerly. so my mum and i were at heeren yesterday. and we were looking at some earrings. suddenly i said "i wanna get another pair of earholes!" and she was like "okay. but won't you be scared of the pain?" then i'm like no i won't. and i went to get my earholes like straight after she agreed. scared that she won't allow it later. yes, and she went with me! she wanted too, but she's scared of the pain, so ohwell. but can you imagine. it's like why i didn't dare to get one is i didn't dare to approach my mum and tell her about it. and she was so cool with it. so unbelievable!

and i think i rock. *hurhur. i just do something as i feel like it. like maybe it's a long time i haven't been like this, maybe it's like under suefaye's influence, the "old" me is back again. i think ppl last year sorta "tamed" me down a lil. or maybe a lot. like think before you do something. must be responsible for the consequences. else i'll be wild and everything. but actually it might not be the case. i've always been that wild. in the sense that i do what i want and if you don't like it then get lost. and that applies to my mum too. and i think that pissed the shit outta her and i bet she probably would wanna disown me or act as if she doesn't know me if it weren't for the fact that i'm her daughter and she can't do that to me. but in some cases i was like think before you act though some still don't think i would be serious enough to do so.

and anyway, supposed to meet van at bedok mrt station at 7.40 AM. and i thought i was quite late 'cause i was only at the underpass at 7.50 i think and i saw her walking from the other end of the underpass. and i thought that we're having amath remedial at 8.30 so i was rushing for nothing. it only starts at 9 AM. =.= loser me. and i told geraldine it's 8.30!! anyway. we reached there at 8.40? and we saw ongweiling. and at the busstop. i saw cheryl. went school together and i realised why geraldine asked me when's amath. 'cause 302 and 304 were having combined lesson!!

*sigh. and the whole lesson was like so shit. 3 hours sitting there like a retard or something. and nothing went into my poor brain. 'cause it's switched to holiday mode and refused to switch to lesson mode. but what's the difference anyway. i've been playing a fool for the past 6 months regarding my studies. and i'm so not gonna do well 'cause of that. and i'm gonna disappoint my parents and then getting laughed at by my relatives. *hur. imaginative.

let's see what booshit i was trying to do. i tried to listen to the radio on my phone. i tried to eat in class. i tried to sms. i tried to talk. i tried to.. irritate zhonglu and jieqiong. i tried to listen to the lesson but i couldn't. i tried to like wongtk more but i thought it won't be nice to keep on lying about liking her. suefaye tried to pass a message to me saying "there's a white handprint on the wall" but it wasn't very successful. 'cause only a few looked up. was trying to concentrate but soon fell asleep. *whaowhao. ain't that a long list. =)) 3 hours just past with this whole thing of booshit.

went out with angeline and meixian as planned. though it would be better that michelletan could come. she did come. but she didn't go and watch with us. even though we got her a shirt and a pair of bottoms. =\ she just went lido to eat lunch with us, but later on we didn't even eat lunch 'cause we caught the 1 something show. and some bloody assholes sat on our seats and i was so separated with angeline and meixian. i was sitting alone like so loner-ish watching a horror movie which wasn't scary at all. it's more of like so amusing. i don't know why. like the sound effects made it predictable when and where the stupid ghost and toshio's gonna appear. but the whole cinema was like so freaked out and everything. and that peekaboo thing was so hella funny!! angeline was saying the guy in front of us were like hugging each other and was so freaked out and i was laughing away. *gosh. and those assholes sitting in our places were like shouting endlessly.

and after that meixian lost her wallet. so we were thinking that it should be lost in the cinema. and we asked the uncle outside and he let us in. nice man. =) and we watched the same show twice. it's not as freaky as before. it never was freaky in the first place. and already knew what happened here and there. so it's not very nice. and i kept missing the beginning. *haii. fated not to watch that part huh. and anyway. angeline and i were talking too loud and there's this bastard in front of us shushing us up. i mean if he didn't like people to just talk in the cinema. then don't go! that's the fun part about watching it in cinema right. there's thousand and one people watching and there's like screaming and shouting. it's fun like this. and that bastard won't understand. he could just simply wait for the vcd to come out and then he watch it alone by himself. he sure will enjoy it man. but i don't think he wanna do so. i think he's too scared to watch it alone. he's gonna pee on his pants if he do so. *hur. so i was talking even louder than before and angeline had to keep me quiet. and he was amused by the whole show too. was shaking with laughter. stupid man. sometimes man are just so plain stupid. *ugh. oh and he left even before the show ended. i bet he's so scared! so i was quite happy about that. and started talking again. =)) i realised i have some mixed up emotions or whatsoever. like in a scary show i would be laughing. and in a comedy i would be screaming instead. crazy me.

meixian found her wallet in the end. it was found in the public toilet. good for her man. we were like going to the security department or whatsoever in isetan asking about it and then to the counter in lido and practically asked everyone who could have known what we should do and where we can find it. i wonder when will someone be that sweet and nice to me like how nice and sweet i was towards meixian that day. i actually didn't wanna stay any longer. 'cause i haven't touched my newspaper project at all. and i'm supposed to finish it by tomorrow. i don't know what makes me stay on and help out. but i guess it's worth it. i hope.

went home and came online and finally got like all the articles. i'm already pissed by the fact that they didn't give me like on monday or when was it that i asked them to send it to me by. and i started cheonging alone. till weiling came and helped out until 1 AM. all the others were probably enjoying their damn sleep can. i mean. sometimes it's really unfair for me to do everything. and it's like i know people say life is never fair. but why do i always get the bad side instead of the good side. good side as in something like sleeping while the one with the bad side is pia-ing. i don't know. and the other group like pet's group. at least she's vanessa to help out? and i was bloody alone. alone. melissa and suefaye and karen and ashlyn weren't being helpful at all. maybe karen and ashlyn can be excused 'cause they are still in camp. but what about sue and mel? *sigh. and there's like tonnes of advertisements and entertainment stuffs to be done. and it's not done. and weiling and i had to do it by ourselves. but i think i was rather fast. i finished it at 3 AM. it was rather lame but quite funkae. like just for teens [just 14]. 14 pages. $1.40. june 14th. and it's quite pro-looking. slept and woke up at 9 and continued and found some errors. edited it and printed it out. sent for printing. then to realise that the aunt didn't know how to print. so there's quite a few pages that's wrong. and in the end i had to print it myself. and i stayed there for almost an hour. what the crap man =.= took a cab down to school and handed it in 30 minutes late. without reflections too. so i was already booshitting that there was a traffic jam. then the reflections i said i thought we need to hand in together as a group and there's people in the camp so i thought i shouldn't bring it. how lame can i get sometimes. and tinachung. i think she knew that i was lying. but she's too kind lar huh.

went out with pet vanessa and yinjia later to lido again. and we watched how to lose a guy in ten days at 3 with jiayan. she came after her amath remedial. and anyway. we were half-way to lido when pet and vanessa started quarrelling over 7 bucks. and we were like in public. so it was rather embarrassing. and somemore it's like they were shouting here and there. and yinjia and i were so stuck in the middle. sometimes i hate arguements between two friends when some other friends are around. and it's not like i would be so clear-headed to think too. but situations like this, it's not the people who are argueing that's pai-seh about it. they're just too angry to be paiseh. it's the friends around. =.= like seriously. and they didn't give a damn about us. like i was trying to us them to calm down and afterall we came out happy and all, and they started dao-ing each other and sorta me too. and i was already too exasperated. i could have screamed too if it weren't for the fact that.. i didn't dare to.

and i think friday the 13th was rather unlucky 'cause i met him again. it's not really unlucky. but yar. i rather not see him if i've got a choice. and it's like whole day i see him in lido. a bit *ugh only. and the worst thing was i saw him in our school once. what the hell right. i guess i can't escape from him. like really. and i'm not even sure if it's him or not. as in. what if he's not. then i guess me and him are always fated to see each other. =\ and anyway. i saw alvin too. oh gosh. i wasn't very sure it's him or not too. but i sure didn't know it's him at first. i was rather amused by these two ri guys in front of me at first 'cause one was so tall and the other one was rather short. and i guess while walking past people, it tends to be noisier and the tall one couldn't hear what the shorter one was talking about so he kinda bent a little. it's like so funny. then i thought the tall one looks familiar. but the hairdo. i don't think it's alvin.

we were nearly late for the movie anyway. so we went into the cinema. and i still think it's him though .*hur. forget it. i'm sucha loser. the show was hella funny man. and that actress's really hot. that guy too. =) and they're like sucha funny couple. rather sweet though. but they won't be that funny and sweet if it weren't 'cause of their job. *tsktsk. and *aww. the ending was soo sweet. and all the *booshit here and there. they are really a cute couple. and they look so great together.

went to stadium after that and bought another waist pouch for another brother. i don't see what's so great about it and they're like fighting over having one. so my mum thought it was rather cheap and asked me to get another one which is like exactly the same. goodness. they're insane. that's what pet said too. anyway. went home with her and plopped in front of the computer. then alvin was online and we were like talking about me seeing him at lido. it was reallyreally funny.

me: heey. were yoo in lido todae? haha
him: oh gosh.. u saw mi??!?!?!
me: you seriously went arr?? hahaha. yar. guess so if that's yoo
him: yarh..
me: haha
him: wah lao.. y nv sae hi!!! bad bad bad..
me: arhahaha.. i carn confirm it was yoo wad. hahaha. but im damn amused by how yoo bent a lil to talk to your tt fren
him: oiii.. wad time u saw?
me: hahah. 3?
him: oh.. heeey.. u realli shudve saed sth!!! sho long nv c u liao..
me: y hahaha
him: wonder how u look lyke.. ;)
me: lol.. yoo look so.. diff
him: bad bad bad..
him: in wad wae?
me: hair? hahaha. i wasn't too sure cos of your hair i think haha
him: yarh.. trying 2 do centre parting now.. *wink*
me: yyy... centreparting.
him: not nice meh? betta than go spike i tink... or aniting lyke tt..
me: hahaha.. maybee.
him: yarh wad..

then it sorta digressed and went on about nemo. which was really hilarious.

him: watching neeemoooo.. u watch liao?
me: noope. everyone's crazy over it.. =\
him: it's nice it's nice it's nice.. u MUST watch..
him: n i mean MUST
me: okiee.. wait till i have de $$
him: it's got evriting in 1 movie.. u name it they got it..
me: icic.. okiee. maybe i'll go then. aiya.. but im so broke now. lol
him: then i can lend u.. cos it's a must watch.. it's realli nice..
him: it's worth da $$. not lyke tupid matrix..
him: bleaghh.. :P
me: haha matrix.. i almost died.. so draggy. waste money.. haha. okie. i shall go watch..
him: tt's y.. gdgdgdgd..
me: haiyaa. watched too many movies already man. my mum's gonna kill me
him: hha.. i knoe..
him: hahah.. u r a movie watcher.. :)
me: hah hah. ain't yoo too den
him: but u must choose gd from bad movies.. lyke neeemooo..
me: hahaha.. im amused.
him: i've never recommended ani1 lyke tis okay.. from da veri first second.. it's nice alredi..
me: haha.. coool.

and in between, it's something about life and everything. and back to the topic. yea.

him: just now did u c hu i go out wif?
me: a guy?
him: where did u c us? hahaha..
me: walking towards... the toilet??
him: oh.. hahahaha.. u realli hav 2 sae hi lar.. oh man..
me: aiya. but i wasn't sure! if i was quite sure den i would have gone up
him: at least just sae alvin.. then if i turn.. then u knoe liaoz.. hahahah..
me: hahahaha..
him: :D tt's wad i alwaes do..
me: riiighhtt.. ahhahaha. yoo shud just grow some eyes behind ur back den u can just see mee den
me: hahahahah
him: yarh..
him: lyke i can!!
him: hahaha..

after that it was like about our ccas.. and about my mortal! that part was quite funny. 'cause he thought i was like xiang waiwai. *hurhur.

heaven by your side;
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