__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Sunday, June 22, 2003

[[ 14/06/2003 ]]
woke up at 1? can't remember. getting later and later. that's what i definitely know. i feel stupid updating like some stuffs that happened a week ago. but it's kinda fun too? i don't know. but at least i'm contented with what i'm doing now. typing some stuffs down so that i would remember that this actually happened. i realised i'm really a movie buff eh. at least that's what everyone thinks. *whee. but those movies i watched. either it's not that great, or the person i watched with ain't the one that i wanna watch with, or the people there in the cinema are sucky, or the cinema sucks totally. *sigh. whatever.

okay. so i plopped myself in front of the computer as usual. getting oh-so excited about the concert later at night. and i'm so totally into him. *hurhur. okay. and i was talking online feeling bored waiting impatient to get to victoria concert hall, when pet asked me to go her house. 'cause her parents are out and both of us were bored. went over to her house at 3. and found out that her parents just came back. went to her room and watched her pack her room. oh and before that. i wanted to wear this pair of jeans i haven't been wearing for let's see, 6 months? and well, i was trying it, and to my horror, i couldn't fit in. i mean, yes! jac grew fatter and fatter and she's feeling like she's gonna explode any moment now?! and i absolutely got no other pairs of jeans to wear, 'cause that was the loosest jeans i could find. so that means. i've got no proper bottoms. searched my whole wardrobe, and found a miserable.. skirt. yes. gosh. jac in a skirt, must be the megajoke of the century.

was in pet's room and suddenly it started to rain elephants and more elephants. if i was later, i would have gotten myself so drenched. basically it was some major crapping session in the room and then we decided to play pool! so both of us were online in her room and we were playing. half the time i was screaming. 'cause i'm losing? yea. and she's so totally pro. =)) taught me some new stuffs i never knew of. well, now i'm pro-er in pool. *yay. and we had fun and everything. and her maid came in? or was it before that. anyway, we went down half-way to eat lunch/dinner/whatever. was just talking and eating and i was sucha loser. i can't use the chopsticks properly. sucksucks. oh and her aunty came and she was like trying to hide away from her. it was so hilarious. and pet was like so funny. i don't know why she's so scared of her aunt. but she said something like her aunt goes *nyahnyahnyah everytime she sees them.

and then we played on and i was insisting that pet doesn't look like who she is when she's young whenever and whereever i see some photos of her when she's young. the photos doesn't look like her at all. and she said it does! *laughingoutloud. played and played until 6.15 and i left her house for the bus-stop. and i waited for the damn bus till god-knows-how-long. so i decided to call my dad who was about to leave home for something. and he picked me up at 7.15 PM at the bus-stop outside her house. i was like cursing and swearing and whatever that came to my mind. one whole solid hour sitting there like a foolish retard. but half the time i was getting so excited i don't know why. steph's capable of making me maluated anyway. she sent some sms she's replying me to sijia. *ohgosh.

i think dad was rather pissed with me 'cause i was so uncertain of where to go? supposed to go cityhall. and smart steph told me some road i can't remember what its name already. and then realised that there's two roads or sides with that name, or whatever i couldn't catch what she was talking exactly, so in the end she told me to just go victoria concert hall myself. felt a bit idiotic and guilty of making them wait and then not to meet them later.

ben went too. i think i was rather mean. i didn't say hi i think. feel like i'm quite hostile towards him. but what can i do. it's a long time i last seen him. and well, the sight of him reminds me of that bastard. fucking bastard. afterall everyone will think of him when there's ben and ben when there's him. they're inseparable. well, but he looks funny like always. not funny in the way that he's weird or anything. just the sight of him makes me laugh. and his :D face. gee.. okay. maybe i should be nicer next time i swear. 'cause he's nice and he's not that bastard. yes, he's not. he's just a simple guy i guess.

and i saw mrs lee!! ohmygosh!! my darling mrs lee! my dear psch choir mistress! she's sososo nice. it's been 3 years since i've seen her. sorta lost contact. but we managed to keep in contact by sending cards every new year. ohgosh. she's so the same! and i wanted to go up to her and say hi but well, she disappeared when i talked to steph. and i found her in the concert hall anyway. went up to say hi and it was kind awkward. oh but i couldn't help it, i really was feeling so thrilled by the thought that i'm gonna see him like really soon. and i was happy and all. and it became shocking. tohbahsheng was the guest conductor. tohbahsheng that toh bastard! and his bloodily the conductor?!! and his forever oh-so-fair and disgusting face.. it made me wanna puke. and i was like almost screaming. *rolleyes. he's that stupid asshole who scolded me for talking can when i was p6. *hur. he's my mentor, my choir conductor. my whatever. he's absolutely fucking mad.

nevermind. i saw him. and he's like so shuaaii. =)) oh and he didn't wear specs that day. i think he looks better with specs on. but it's okay. he's still so cute looking. *swoons. the choir was not bad lar. expected. like if it's not good. tohbansheng would never allow them to go on. tohbansheng's too perfectionist. if only you were under him before, you won't understand, and i saw that stupid "smile!" thing he always do. nightmares. =.= horrigible. and he's so bloody biantai i remember. "if you didn't breathe properly. i'm gonna put my hands on your stomach until you breathe it like i want it to be" then i was thinking whether he did it on the guys too. *hurhur. but it's kinda boring. as in it wasn't that *whao and i kept on talking to steph. *oops.

then it was the acapella group. they were like so funkaee!! the songs were like so nice. and he sang that "i'll be there for you". and his voice's like so unique. very different from the others. and i just kept on staring at him throughout the whole performance. i sound like a pervert here eh. but he's too eye-catching. and it's not like i'm the only one doing so. i bet there's a lotsa people out there doing so too. and there's this guy who's quite girlish-looking. and there's another guy who sang the chinese songs really well. like power. not bad-looking too. and the short guy hanyan-lookalike is still shaking like forever. and they all looked great in their tuxedos. and what they wear for the acappella performance. =)) i think i really sound very crazy over the whole thing and making a big hoo-hah now. oh and he's david tay if i'm not wrong.

and i was thinking. they're from saf right. so that means i really have another chance to see them like again. you never know. it might be like face-to-face that close. it might be that my dad knows him. and it might be like he's under my dad once or something. then i get to know him. and maybe shake hand or whatever close contact. *grins. 'cause well, my dad's in saf. and he knows hella loads of people. and they frequently have this kinda family day and whatsoever day where you go some club a lotsa times. it used to be beside suntec. and now it's shifted to boonlay if i'm not wrong. so if i go there, and hopefully if they perform, and i'll get to see that david guy again. *daydreaming. and that's like something the others won't get to do so. 'cause they don't have that privellege. and like once-in-a-lifetime experiences. i do get to go pulau tekong like those army bases? whatever is on that island huh, but if i like it, i might get to stay-over at that place a day or two. that's what my dad says. oh and remember those warships that's big or whatever you call them, they were at some harbour quite some time ago. the public get to view it, i actually got onto it and went out to the sea in it. isn't that *whao. and alotsa those kinda funkae stuffs.

heaven by your side;
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