Thursday, June 05, 2003 [feeling] [[ good and happy! ]] heaven by your side;
[listening] [[ voices that care - various artistes ]]
[thinking] [[ school's out! ]]
[wishing] [[ art fest gonna be funkae! ]]
higher chinese, we did the bao zhang bao dao. went to sit with suefaye. 'cause she's prepared the points. yup. and another thing was i didn't want to look like a loser that day. yes. jac abandoned me again. what's new anyway. she fcuking won't care what i feel alright. i mean. sigh. maybe i'm just a selfish bitch. whatever. do i seem to care? but then again, the further she goes, the better. i'm getting tired of being so scared she will just scream her head off at me 'cause i irritate her, or her being sarcastic. sometimes i realised i don't hate the teacher, they are quite okay, but influential peoples exist and cause me to think that they are bad.
and bio. it was her last lesson. i think she's kinda unwilling to leave maybe. 'cause she's got the passion to teach. she's got the experiences too. but i don't think girls our age nowadays are sensible and sensitive enough for her to teach. she just has to break her voice and everything, before getting the whole class to settle down. and then she starts her lesson. =\ she's losing control over us, and it's a great timing that she chose to leave, or rather, being replaced. yup. so anyway. she went through the practical worksheets.
didn't go down for recess 'cause suefaye and i were thinking of sneaking down again during english lesson for recess. but when we went out we saw tinachung approaching our class and we got a shock outta my life. =\ went back to class almost immediately. and we went to do our project. went to the encounter lab but some class was using it for lesson, and went to the library but the connection was bad. and missliah gave me my angbao! =)) after that. sneaked down to the canteen and had our recess + lunch. so fun. =) and later on it was physics and we were watching something again i think or was it some powerpoint slides before going down the field and played the water rocket. gosh it was so fun!! and i think i'm gonna crush hochengkam soon. he's so cuutee. like a small lil boy or something. =) anyway. i was squatting there with suefaye and he called me to help pull this metal thing out. at first i was screaming 'cause i didn't dare. was scared that i will get wet. then later, i tried to pull, and this time i scream 'cause i couldn't get it out. and hochengkam came over and helped me with pulling, and it popped and came out and shoot out and i was wet. =\ but it was reallyreally funkae!
went up to class 'cause i didn't want to take lunch. and 'cause peypey wanted to see our class at 1. for some spastic sars form thing again. =.= what's with this big fuss over sars anyway. other diseases killed thousands and millions and i don't see why they didn't make a big din over it. funnae. checked out the board for work experience. i wanna the fun and all but i don't want to fill in so much stuffs and waste money. and you know, i definitely has this fear of not getting it and i will get oh-so disappointed.
talked to suefaye about my ppl stuff 'cause she wanted to see my report book. i'm still super pissed with leekimlan for marking me so low. and i still can't stand her for her hypocrisy. she was so mean to us last time 'cause of bad impression. and when the other group which she praises ran away, she came to suck up to us, 'cause she needed some group to present all the stuffs. and i realised i am still pissed with pars and zihua when i talk about ppl, though not that much now, 'cause i blame leekimlan for that. but i still don't know why there's this big great difference in points when zing and i deserve more points than them. =( we did the research, the presentation, the survey, the interviews, the report, and almost everything together when the other two contributed a lil here and there. i seriously think zing and i could survive without them in ppl. and she accused us of marks-oriented. if we were, we won't have done the ppl carnival, sec 1 talk, the teachers' talk, and the presentation in teachers network. leekimlan, go and die. and i almost teared when i was talking about ppl. how sucky can that get.
i was reading chem textbook in social studies lesson anyway. gonna have a chemistry test later. and she gave us back our second test. i failed. and i can't seem to care about it. i'm just giving up for this term, i shall work hard for the next term. =)
and chemistry was a disaster. i didn't know how to do for thousand and one questions?! like *yay or *yay. the paper was just so plain mean. so tough. and brenna was saying how easy it was if i studied. yes i didn't really study, but i did study, and liarliar pants on fire!! it was much mroe harder than i thought it was. fcuk. nevermind. there's always next term. =\
realised i'm in the cheering squad and i'm doing the cheerleading-ish thing again! and that means my sunday's gone. =)) and how am i gonna escape from netball carn to do my ic. fark. went out with pet and qi en and van and shiling. we were going separate ways anyway. pet and qi en and i were supposed to shop around orchard, whereas van and shiling were going tampines mall to find pet's birthday present. and it started raining cats and dogs. went down to tangs and we met shuwen and yining. they were trying to buy pet's birthday present. and pet found them!! later on, when we were outside the mrt station, van qien and shiling went to take the train and we continued walking around orchard. went to cd-rama and sembawang music centre, and shuwen got some cd.
went to wisma and to bits and pieces and bought a few pairs of earrings for some people in our class and a pendant + earrings for sue. bought for karen, huili, and no-one else. yining bought one for me too. *yay. thanks thanks. went to taka and shopped around for pet's bottle. and they got it. became their atm again. i think the notebooks there are really funkaee. i want man. but i think i got one already. so that's sad. i can't possibly have two at the same time. and after that yining and shuwen went home.
so pet and i walked around and we talked a lot. we just talked, i don't know why. we ain't that close before today. i think she's really a sweetie. nice and everything. and she's so poor thing. easily bullied by van and everyone else. i mean it's her birthday and all. and they should be the one treating her. but i think van was being a tad selfish and asked for a treat instead. they should know their limits sometimes. she's not an atm or anything. she's really nice to talk to. i'm gonna get her a big birthday present. maybe not that big. but i think i'll get her soft-toy. since she said she never ever gotten one before for birthday present. walked around kino, didn't know what we were doing, i guess we were just roaming aimlessly. and we didn't want to go home. went down from kino to buy half loaf of apple strudel. *yumyum. and walked around all over wisma and taka. and finally went home together by mrt.
saw sean! man. i think he's quite good-looking now. liked tanned, tall, no specs, kinda sunshine-ish, not screwed up hair. and considering he's so much more taller than me. and he's with this funkae girl from his school too. well. he certainly doesn't look like he's younger than me. he's my that damn junior who sat on my score sheet. and i can't believe that the guy who was in front of me on the escalator was once in choir with me! gee. and i feel super short suddenly. low self-esteem again. *hurhur.
reached home and ate the half loaf strudel with a can of coke. *smacklips. realised there's no house lunch tomorrow. but there's cca committee meeting. die. miss pang. but going out with xinyi tomorrow after that. just hope it's fun. =)
chong and chun smsed me and told me that the sunday gathering is still on. they wanna go tampines mall. and eat in seoul's garden. i'm begging them to change to marche and go cine or something. and then maybe i can meet suefaye afterwards and cut my damn hair. *whee. and then i can go for the cheering competition rehearsal/practice/whatsoever. i'm getting overly excited. gonna see them soon. =) but then i'm starting to dread about seeing them. i know i've changed a lot a lot these few years. and they probably gonna question me a lot about whether i'm a les, do i have a bf, or i bet you have lotsa contacts with ri guys, kinda stuffs. and i'm not exactly looking good now 'cause of a few pimples here and there. fcuk. will they sometimes leave me alone.
anyway, drew my june holiday's time-table out. my first week's a goner.
x 11:20 pm
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