__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Monday, June 30, 2003

[[ thursday - continued ]]
and angeline said that i wasn't telling the truth in my reflections. angeline thinks that she's gonna get into trouble with sally or something. 'cause she said something that's not exactly very nice and biyi thought it was rather harsh. but i guess that's really the truth and truth bites yea. and you know those people who did more in the project. and when they were asked to do some reflections, they kinda have this struggle within them, whether or not to tell the truth. like angeline and i are two classic examples of the only two choices that person can make. to tell the truth and not to tell the truth. but the thing is, in both choices, the person's gonna feel bad about making that choice. i would regret and sigh and "suffer in silent" while angeline can just jollywell get insomnia and thinking about what she says and get freaked out by thinking about what trouble will that person she was talking about in the reflection get into? and then will that person hate her?

that's was what angeline and i were talking about in physics. physics was utterly boring. =.= angeline and i started to talk a lotsa cock. i was complaining about ppl too. *hur. you know seriously i don't think anyone will actually listen to my rantings. i'm just an utterly boring person with lotsa complaints and i just am so irritating sometimes. i really hope to get a fren, i'm not asking for many, just one, to just will listen to mine and then i listen to hers. it's really nice you know. but i don't think i will be able to do so. i mean. sometimes yes. this person might be nice to talk to or simply she's just nice. but it doesn't exactly mean that she's the one who's gonna be so willing to listen to you. i'm willing to listen to others sometimes and i'm willing to be there for them when they need me. but i don't see anyone who would actually stay and do so to me. is that really hard..? and sometimes like when you told this person some stuffs and she jollywell went to publicise to the whole world. it's not very nice okay. feeling betrayed ain't good. and that some don't know their limits too. i really do have tempers okay. ohwell. anyway, woohoo. i lurve angeline sometimes. she's mad really. and it's really nice sitting with her. orh. and she said it was her dream to sit with me? i guess that's some nonsense huh.

[edit] and i was like thinking, i really can't express myself much too. so in a sense it's not like if there's a fren there for me i will confide in him/her. and hardly i ever seem to show that i care about my frens too 'cause i don't how to console people or make them feel better.

and quote from someone's blog:

its funny how everyone sees everyone else everyday in school but all we ever say in school is meaningless chatter; no one opens up to confide in anyone else at school and everyone seems happy and without a care in the world when in fact, that's not the case and then when you read people's blogs u realise how much you don't know about people and you start wondering why you never got down to knowing them better. [/edit]

higher chinese. we had some oral practices. partnered with poleng and we were like damn noisy. or rather. it was me. and i think we were rather comical. like we refused to start first then we scissors-paper-stoned which wasn't good 'cause poleng still refused to start when she lost. =\ then it was kinda so booshit that i think suefaye was amused by it. i screamed too. and laoshi came in and said we were too noisy and that who was the one who screamed. and i refused to admit. luckily no one said it was me alright.

and then after school zing zihua mel suefaye and i went to cine to catch charlie's angels. met karen there. she was with her ex-classmates lar. that woman cut her hair and she ponned school today somemore. zai man. and then we found out that there's not many seats left for 4.30 PM timeslot so we decided to watch the 5.15 show. zihua didn't join us anyway. okay. so we bought the tickets and we went down to yoshinoya to eat. it was really fun. like the 204 gathering or something. and basically they are the ones that i'm quite close with in 204. and we're like laughing and laughing. it's nice. ohgod. love you guys from 204 totally. -muuuah. we rock. period.

the show was rather okay. really hilarious. people thinks it's trashy though. don't know why. the angels are like so goodness. funkae!! fabulous bods. chio. and they're so crazy and wild and.. zai. cameron diaz. whee~ so cool. the stuffs they used they're like so high-tech too. and it's so action packed. but i hate it when they seemed to be the same as james bond. like they never die? and how they fell from the bridge from the car onto the helicopter was totally crap. it's really impossible. ooo.. and that part when alex finally revealed what her job is to her dad, and when her bf was telling her father about it, it was so goddamn funny. 'cause i think her dad got the wrong idea what she's working as. and her bf asked him to accept what she is and whatever she does if she likes it. plus, all their weird hairdos and wigs. *wink. it's really like great if you need a good laugh. =))

heaven by your side;
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