Tuesday, July 08, 2003 heaven by your side;
[[ 02/07/2003 - 04/07/2003 ]]
it's gonna be madness if i blog day-by-day. so i guess i will mass-blog about last week. =\ school was utterly boring. and i'm not in the mood for school and it's already in. so let's just not talk about it. =( and it's so stressful and mad. like it's driving me up the wall. and i swear i will never get down if i ever get up the wall. never.
library was okay on wednesday. was just slogging away. was doing shelving. damn i hate that job. anyway. later there was this meeting. and we were introduced to this new system of shit lar. it's basically like lightening the burden of the day-leaders so called. which probably i'm not so affected by. there's this point system whereby if you don't do this you will yadayadayada and get points demerited. whereas if you do this really great job and you've got positive attitude and haiya. you get the idea. and you'll get more points. okay. and there's this point whereby if you absent yourself for no excuse then you'll get points deducted. and if you've got 100% attendance. you get more points?! so i'm very sure i'm getting so screwed up with this whole new thing. 'cause i will die? i mean i will pon and everything. which is like not good at all for me.
and i'm supposed to set a good example.. 'cause i'm in the damn com. =.= oh and we were doing house-keeping. i found this slip of paper with the voting results. c'mon man! i was like so bloody pissed off can. xinyi got 25 votes. i'd 17 votes. 8 votes difference. so she's meant to be the chairman. and anyway. guess what's the number of votes the other freaking v-chair had? 7 fucking votes! like 10 votes difference?! and it's like so i'm rightfully the damn v-chair okay?! and she's trying to boss me around. like what the fuck can. i mean i'm not being calculative or anything. but hell. her post was meant to be some sec 3-to-be v-chair?! *ugh. it totally pissed me off man.
and on thursday, pet, van, jiayan, yinjia i think. all of us stayed back in class to practise for chinese oral the next day. it was kinda funny. and i think i was stammering. and there's this part that pet was asking me about this topic regarding maids and i was talking and talking.. till this part i started stammering and was trying to find the correct word so i was like saying. "nu3 yong1 he2 hai2 zi men2 qingqingqing.." i was trying to say "qing1 mi4" but it sounded like i was saying they kiss. =)) and i was referring to pet! so she was really amused by it.
later we went to yoshinoya and ate our dinner there. it was really fun.. okay. everything's fun for me if i'm with my friends and i'm out of my house. =\ and van and her clique has this some funny family-tree. pet was the dad. so it's like she's claiming i'm the mistress of her dad.. like whatever..
went home and was on the net and found this.
may: stubborn and hard-hearted. strong-willed and highly motivated. sharp thoughts. easily angered. attracts others and loves attention. deep feelings. beautiful physically and mentally. firm Standpoint. needs no motivation. easily consoled. systematic [left brain]. loves to dream. strong clairvoyance. understanding. sickness usually in the ear and neck. good imagination. good physical. weak breathing. loves literature and the arts. loves traveling. dislike being at home. restless. not having many children. hardworking. high spirited. spendthrift.
does your name begin with: j
you are blessed with a great deal of physical enerfy. when used for a good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't always used for the good. [you could dance all night.] you respond to the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game. you can carry on great romances in your head. at heart you are a roamer and need to set out on your own every so often. you will carry on long- distance relationships with ease. you are idealistic and need to believe in love. you have a need to be nurtured deep within.
had orals on friday afternoon and i tell you i totally screwed it up. firstly. i was like alright and i was so not nervous when everyone else was. and just as i was like happy about everything, my stomach started to ache. and i was not very sure it's those kinda that's 'cause you're nervous. or those that you needed to shit like what jac put it. so i went up to scott wolfe and told him i've got a stomachache. and he told me to go to the male's toilet behind the stage. i'm like who cares whatever! just go!! and i went and died there.
okay and after that i came back. and obviously i was sososo extra. lotsa people knew that i was the extra one going to the toilet half-way. like i'm so totally extra whenever whereever i go. oh. and it's like i was having my oral lar. and it's like they were expression-less at first. and i was so totally freaked out and furthermore the questions were like so difficult to talk about. partly 'cause i didn't prepare anything. i was just like saying i really acked care and i really killed myself with that stupid attitude. like i've got nothing to lose. and there's this part the teachers were laughing at me.. =\ 'cause i was trying to think of what's the best word for it and i was like thinking for a long time, and the teacher said it out and i didn't really catch it. so both repeated it tagain. and i went ooo. zuo yong!
and i heard bernie said something like for baozhangbaodao. she said i bet the volunteers were forced to do so. and that don't ask me anything about volunteering, i will never volunteer, 'cause it's a waste of time. and the richanghuati. she was like saying. laoshi, actually i zuobi also. it's really daring man. but i don't think the teachers gonna have a good impression about it.
and then went out to bk with pet, van. shiling? qi'en? jiamin? can't remember. went to eat my dinner and when i went off to wash my hands in the toilet. they somehow knocked down my cup of coke and then we got a free cup. so cool right. after that, i think van and co went pet's house and i went home to bathe and change and begged my dad to drive me to paya lebar to pick up geraldine and then we headed for nus cultural centre.
the centre was like *whao. and the concert was quite good. i mean. yea it's good. though i still think last year's concert was better. 'cause of the cinderella play and definitely, this year, the saf choir's so much pro-er and better. =\ i think maybe that's why i thought the choir was lacking of something. maybe guys' choir are more powerful and nice. i don't know. saw avonne and she was like really panicking and i saw michelletan and junli too. poor girls. had to rush to the centre straight after their orals. so pitiful. i like the ice-kachang part. quite like the end too. but the play was like really short.. i think the acappella's group's really un-pro compared to the saf choir. and that. the second group was so much lousier than the original group. ruth ling and this ex-rg girl came back. and they're so totally funkae. bought ruthling's cd!! and i thought this song's nice.
how can i not - ruth ling
who am i
for you to want me as you do
loving me as i am
who am i
for you to touch me as you do
reaching out both your hands
who am i
for you to bear my burdens
lifting me again and again
tell me how can i not love you
with all that i have
how can i not love you
how can i not care
through the valleys of the shadows of the death
it's you who hasn't left
tell me how can i not love you
with all that i have
who am i
for you to save me as you do
paying the price that's due
who am i
for you to love me as you do
giving me life that's true
who am i
for you to have the patience
molding again and again
tell me how can i not love you
with all that i have
how can i not love you
how can i not care
through the valleys of the shadows of the death
it's you who hasn't left
tell me how can i not love you
with all that i have
with all that i have
x 11:07 pm
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