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Sunday, October 26, 2003

just finished studying sec 4 chinese stuffs. -beams- quite an achievement again huh. but i suspect it went in and didn't stay as long as i wanted them to be. like again. -sigh-

haven't been updating. i think i'm gonna go on hiatus again. which seldom works.

i think i'm working so hard for this coming chinese olevel 'cause i was utterly disappointed with myself in this year's eoy. and i desperately need an A1 for my chinese. and also i need to prove that.. i'm not thaat stupid. i'm gonna get myself back on track. to study consistently and everything. i'm gonna be more mature than before. i'm not gonna waste my time again. -determined-

hurs. but i think i can't get back to what i used to be. like a real mugger or something by the look of everything now. 'cause even the simplest thing like cramming myself with chinese words is already a tough chore. -shake head-

oh anyway, i thought thursday was quite cool. you get to choose to mug at your own pace. it's quite boring with nothing else but chinese, but i guess it's good to study with your frens. what else can you ask for anyway? and we're supposed to either do sec 4 fuxi questions or gonghans. i chose to do gonghans. 'cause i thought i screwed up my letter-writing badly in the exams. and that i could always do the fuxi in the weekends to test myself whether i'm ready for kaocha.

really went mad doing gonghans. i'm almost done with those in the other schools' papers [1]. left 2 i think. =|

so anyway, went to have lunch with angie in raffles city. 'cause i was sucha nuisance. i was complaining she dragged me all the way to mrt station leaving me with no one to eat with. so she decided to be a kind soul and accompanied me there to eat. whoa! nice beef noodles! -grin- i swear i was so "bright"! nevermind, i don't think you'll get it. =)

oh anyway, i did bring my baby photos finally. as in those of my 1st birthday party. showed suefaye. she thinks that eugene and i looked soo cute together on the bed with the other uncles. she thinks both of us look good in there. so cute. oh and there were some other photos that she started commenting "i wonder if you all will do this now, like having his arm around your shoulder", err something else i can't remember now. and she thinks that we're really close. but i think it's just because we're the only kiddiekids there then and that they had no choice but to play with me and stuffs. and the cake especially, was very attracting.

oh and she asked me which uncle i like the most. i wanted to say it's eugene. 'cause i thought he's one of those closer to my age and one of those who seemed really nice. ben's nice too. i think. but it's kinda embarrassing. like what if she tells him? and it's not like i am close to them now or then anyway. it's always the parents who are close and everything. the only thing i remember was i used to go their house and this small container he made for me. =) oh. like uncle, like niece? he was in aep.

oh well, the night was funn anyway. sue, angie and i went to mel's house for sleepover. wah. damn funn. you know we're just like a bunch of crazy idiots. sitting at the table talking nonsense was already such an entertainment for me. there were some confessions confessions. and some stuffs about sue's and mel's outing with pirui. think i was quite quiet. 'cause i don't exactly have any idea what or who they're talking about and i was kinda.. feeling weird. angie was so damn funny. she thought ben's my cousin! as in benlim. i mean same surname doesn't mean cousins right? and then she said it's incestuous. i was so confused then. i mean since when was i with him or anything that sort? and she mistook that the ben i was talking about was ben phua, who's my uncle and eugene's brother and not my cousin. hell. funny ain't she?

and the best thing was, angie sue and i walked to this cheese prata shop at 2 AM in the morning. ate a cheese prata and a mushroom prata. deelicioous. =) i'm a pig. or so i think. apparently, i'm the only one who ate 2 pratas and still dashed into 7-11 buying a huge cup of coke and some snacks. how sinful.

angie and i were so freaked out later in mel's house 'cause she heard someone calling her name from the outside and i could hear knocks on the glass door. but we soon forgot about it and we went upstairs and went a tad crazy again. angie thinks i look like a puppy. or i am her puppy. well, it sounds like she's trying to hint i'm a soon-to-be-bitch. -laugh- she's really mad. she said something about puppy lurve. like *eww.

oh and i conclude angie takes a long time to wash up. and hell lotsa water.

by the time we calmed down and washed up it was nearly 4 AM.

we slept all the way till 12 PM. wah and angie and my air-con sickness was quite sad. sneezing and sneezing. and she took another half an hour washing up again. angie and i went down to town for lunch in mache. and by the time we started anything that's gotta do with chinese in lido, it was already 3 PM. it was hella crowded kae. it's no wonder when it's a public holiday. =| oh and angie was scared that i'll meet someone there. but we didn't anyway, which is of course, good.

and i was so bloody pissed off with my mum again. first she didn't like the idea of me going back to sentosa to suntan, i mean hell, can she be less conservative?! i mean what can happen to me right? and i need a break from this mugging shit. and then she had to further piss me off with more nonsense of hers.

my dad kindly asked me whether i need a lift home after my mugging session, so i gladly accept it. and i told him to come fetch me at around 7. and he agreed. then 'cause troublesome angie wanted me to accompany her back to mrt station so i decided to just call my dad to stop at wisma's taxi stand instead. and he jollywell asked me to go home myself. i mean hey this is so fucking nonsensical. don't promise anything if you can't keep to it! and furthermore i didn't ask for it, you asked me whether i wanted it. i'm not that spoilt okay. like hullo, i can just go home myself and i so do not need you to make me happy for nothing. i'll be much more happier if they didn't play me out and i had to go home myself. and i was already feeling quite bored and sick and i thought i should just leave at 5 something. but then again i thought i should just wait for my dad to come. and at 6.20 he asked me to go home myself?! just because what, my mum's fucking shopping at somewhere else and she needed him to be her chauffeur! and she did not even buy anything! and she knew long ago i was waiting in orchard?! and to think of all that fuss she was making the day before wondering what will happen to me. in sentosa. broad daylight. i wonder what could have happened to me at night in orchard or bedok more likely. ugh.

and yes. i dao-ed them. and they have no idea why i did so. well, all i can say is they need some soul-searching. they still have the cheek to ask me what's wrong. damn.

anyway, i was home alone in the morning again today. but it didn't exactly bother me 'cause most of the time i was sleeping. watched some tv programmes and did some mugging. together at the same time. went to 7-11 again to replenish my stock of sweets and chocolates too. =) -yumyum- oh cleaned my thermometer too. then i started taking my temperature. much more higher than my usual temperature. arh well. ack.

i think that's about it for today.

wonder when's the next time i'll blog again. tooodles.

heaven by your side;
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