__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

i just knew it. i just knew i'll offend people with my blog. even if it's my own private place to vent out whatever that is inside me. so i suppose i don't even have the freedom to voice out my opinions now and should just be a timid coward and keep everything bottled up inside myself. whee. how very funny. like i've said before. if you're not happy with whatever i typed out, whatever i think i wanna write, you know there's just that X right on top of this window and you can just simply close this window straight away by clicking it and fuck off right away. and once again, ooh. you totally have no rights to be angry with me. 'cause you're so not supposed to know whatever i typed. 'cause. basically i didn't welcome you here. you invited yourself here. looklooklook, my dear, it's really meant to be read by my close frens only. i could have shifted to diary-x or i could just lock it. but the fact that i'm almost html-illiterate didn't allow me to do so. and i really do not know how it got publicised in the sense that, even unwelcomed unclose frens are here too! yay. totally rock ain't it. well, if you so do not understand me, you'll probably think i'm a bloody bitch. so my advice is, don't read on. and if you insist on risking yourself in misunderstanding me more, so be it. it's not my fault anyway. 'cause i think you assume you can take whatever i've said here and we're ooh. close frens. when i warned you waay before anything not to read on.

but i know sometimes whatever i said was quite crude and blunt. very hurting too. but that was outta a fit of anger. and for whoever's who's reading my blog's information, i'm talking about what i've said about angeline. arh. angie. i'm sorry about everything too. but we're alright now yea? =))

and i wonder if you're still reading this. you'll still didn't tag me ay. i'm not expecting much anyway.

and talking about tagging, hur hur. meixian. that's soo bloody funny of you. to think up of such funny stuff to play. although i thought that should be done by a 3-year-old kiddie fool yea? and oh by the way, i still do not understand, if you've confessed that you're the one who's doing all these, why still tagged as "secret admirer". and no it's not sweet and mushy. it's more of feeling disgusted and irritated, if you haven't realised. and it's quite funny of you to think of this prank to play on me, 'cause that just shows how well you understand me. in case you don't know, not many guys know about this blog. and i guess you assumed that it's totally the opposite. and by assuming, you're just making an ass out of you and me. you didn't sound like any of them by the way. and i swear half of them don't have the phone to sms me, and they won't like me. get it clear? and in any case the "secret admirer" happens to be a girl, that's like such an insult to my frens 'cause they're definitely straight. unless you wanna prove it otherwise that maybe those frens who didn't tag at all aren't straight. so give it up. stop thinking it's funny. and i'm not in the least amused.

whao. and that's a lot of dedications in one entry.

and i'm being sarcastic once again. and i wonder if i'll get slammed soon. i won't be surprised.

i'll stop blogging once it's 1-year-old, and it happens to be on the valentine's day. and i'll start everything afresh in the pink diary angeline's gotten me. in a new home too i hope.

i think i'm shifting soon. so i'll have to clean and help out in the new house. and i won't have time for basically anything. i think. so i better get started doing my homework tomorrow or anytime soon. these few days haven't been exactly productive. sleeping at 2, 3 or 4 AM and waking up at 12, 1 or 2 PM. rotting away at home in front of the tv. and there's nothing much to watch too. sian of channel-surfing. and getting into quarrels with my brothers. the after-effects of getting locked up in the house for too long. i got to finish the vampire diaries: the awakening though. was quite okay. but don't understand why it got angie so obsessed with it. but it was quite unpredictable? there's a twist at the end 'cause all along i thought stefan was the killer but it was his brother instead. erps. and it brought back some memories of me in primary six. when we're having the haunted house. it was totally rocking. quite a number of people got freaked out. and i was helping out making all those equipment. and we earned a lot of money from it. it was for fund-raising too. =) haii. and stefan's like so poor thing. he shouldn't be dead else there won't be any continuation of the story already.

oh. and friendster. i don't know why. i was scared of adding anyone i know at first. then i got mad and went on an adding-friends-on-frenster spree. and i added quite a few of my ex-classmates so long ago! goodness. and i bet they'll think who the hell's jacqueline. so now i've 31 frens on frenster, which is considered quite small number of frens to have there. 'cause.. i stopped adding actually. there was a list of waiting-to-add people on my computer after searching every single people on my msn list, 'cause the max i can add is 10 person per time. but now, i just don't feel like adding anymore. the excitement has died out. and i'm too sick of it too. i've only 3 testimonials. and i wrote only one for zing. which was totally sweet, and zing! you've gotta agree on this! =))

and i met up with angie today. was quite fun though i was feeling quite sick. lack of sleep. like i think i slept at 2 AM if i'm not wrong and i was awake by 9 AM. only a pathetic 7 hours of sleep. and then i just washed up, ate some breakfast and grabbed anything and changed into my clothes. and went out at 10 something. and i thought i was late enough. and i was also wondering why angie didn't call when she's supposed to do so at 10. so i called her handphone and it wasn't on. and i got this feeling that she was not even awake. and i tried calling her house phone. and no one picked it up. and i thought it was rather weird.. so i waited at my bus-stop for my bus anyway 'cause i was thinking maybe that goondu forgot to switch on her phone again. and then. my phone rang. she's still at home! and she just woke up!! my goodness!! and so anyway i was like 10 minutes late myself 'cause we're supposed to meet at 11 AM and i reached there at 11.10 instead. and then she came marching into macs at 11.38 AM!! and who was the one who was suspecting whether i'll wake up or not. -laugh- should have just asked her to meet me at 1 PM instead. so that i can have more sleep and she won't oversleep too.

and we met at macs 'cause i decided that i needed a seat and that macs seemed like a better place 'cause i don't know why i was feeling that shit and if it was because i was hungry i could grab a bit there. so when she reached this salesgirl approached us and wanted us to guess how much this perfume cost. and the perfume looked so familiar. and i realised i bought two for pars and my mum!! and they're big fat liars! we got it last year and they were saying something like they're launching at the end of last year. and she said they're selling it at tangs only at the end of this year. my god. so i was like mouthing "liar!" to angeline but she didn't seem to get it. and angie guessed the closest price to the perfume so she could have two at 19.90 instead of one at 89.90. and i got those at 19.90 too last year with two extra body sprays. -laugh- but angie didn't buy in the end 'cause she thought the fragrance was too common. and we thought she was like so act-cute. like she said she's giving it free if we guessed correctly or closest but she didn't. and to think she claimed she's santa claus. and she thought we're in jc and then when we told her we're in secondary school students. and she went you guys are sec 3s right? i'm right! like whatever.

so we went to the library to return our books that were overdue and then we went walking around the level between the library and kinokuniya. and we just spent basically two hours there looking at stuffs like stationery, letter pads, angie's jlpt stuffs, organiser for 2004, etc. and we left there for bugis junction. wasn't too happy 'cause wasn't feeling well. and then we stopped at the food court there and ate our lunch. two big plates of hor fun. and it was so worth it. 4 bucks only. and i was the maid i think. like getting angie her food and drink. =p and we're just talking nonsense lar really. then later we went to seiyu and then we shopped around. tried out this turtleneck long-sleeve pink shirt. was quite nice on her. and this hipster skirt. which can totally drop through. i think turtlenecks are nice. and i luurvee that one that was 66-bucks. but it's too unrealistic to buy that in singapore. will get so hot to death. arh and she's thinking of getting the turtleneck for her trip next year to japan. -laugh- orh and later she got this black singlet too. not that bad lar. and she got me a pair of starry-dangling earrings! so nice of her!! and it was so nice. she said it's for my christmas present! and she said i'm the only person she spent so extravagantly on. quite true, considering that goondu spent over 100 bucks there. and she's willing to share that turtleneck with me. aww i'm so touched. and she bought this cute bra too. from pierre cardin. not bad. i think i'm gonna buy too.. shall ask my mum to go so i won't have to spend any money. hees.

and oh before i forgot, there was this guy promoting some funny membership card for 30 bucks. and i was quite determined not to buy. but angie was like i don't know, don't think she knows whether she's interested in. so they were like tuotuolala. so in the end i asked him what time he'll be there till and i told him that we'll come back at 5 after discussing and he said don't bluff him and set him up like the others. and i was like okay. but we're not gonna be sure whether we'll want it. and then after that when we walked off, i tried to tell angie that it's not exactly worth it. come to think of it, most things will be only on a discount like 10 % or so. and it'll take you to spend 300 over bucks to earn back your 30-buck sign-up fees and then you truly get to enjoy your discounts and privileges. and it's not like you're gonna use it often. and you still have to waste another sum of money just to enjoy the discounts. so in the end we decided not to. and when we were passing by the place we're supposed to meet him, he wasn't there! so we zhao and went into the mrt station. and then we went home.

quite fun lar actually. and i didn't spend much money so it's quite okay. =)

not many fun people to talk to online. and i doubt i'm one of them who're fun anyway. so i shall go off and watch wwe. -laugh- it's quite exciting to watch actually. okay toodles~

heaven by your side;
x 10:53 pm