__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Monday, March 29, 2004

can anyone just tell me which way's the best way to kill myself? or which way can i kill myself almost instantly. 'cause of my fucking carelessness, i lost my fucking nokia 6600 phone today.

so if i can just kill myself, i won't feel that guilty and i won't feel that bad. 'cause my parents refused to make me feel any better by scolding me.

and i swear i love my phone so much i can just.. i don't know, i can't live without it.

to whoever who took my phone. i don't care whatever it is, just return me my phone, pretty please?

not like you can do much with it anyway. you can't sell, you can't trade in. you can't even use it. 'cause i set a lock-code. so the wise thing to do is just give me a call and return it to me.

thanks a lot. like because of your dishonesty, your selfishness, you ruined my day, you ruined my week, you ruined almost everything i'm proud of. you ruined my bloody mood as well.

can't even focus on anything. basically i'm just thinking about it everytime everywhere, wishing it never did happen.

and all i can blame, is me and myself only.

i'm sorry if i can't be the happy usual self tomorrow or days to come. but really, the loss of my phone is too great a blow for me to take. it might sound a bit exaggerated, but it's so true..

by the way, the eye 2's quite a nice show. it's more of a sad show than a horror movie to me, but it looked like it's the otherwise to julia. went to watch it with her, have to say i enjoyed that date with her alone.

ugh. no use trying to sound happy when the obvious is so not the same. shall go find some ways to kill myself. or i'll have to mug social studies. hopefully my eyes will be blinded at the rate i'm crying.

heaven by your side;
x 11:00 pm