__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Saturday, May 01, 2004

well, i was supposed to blog, like say 3 weeks ago about a month ago, but i was too preoccupied with lotsa stuffs that i had no time to do so. i can't remember much now anyway. i know there's class day. but it wasn't exactly exciting for me 'cause i wasn't really in the right mood. lost my nokia 6600 that week. ring a bell?

but you must hear this. you gotta hear this. kelly said "hurry close the doors, so the ants cannot come in." when we had to go for CLE in the hall! so cutee.

okay. now that i finally have the time, well because i had a week away from school. was absent on monday 'cause i had quite a bad flu and a sore throat. went back on tuesday which proved that it was a wrong choice for me 'cause firstly, there's the fuck-up chemistry test i knew nothing that i was writing yet again and secondly, i err.. don't know. arh. a bit of funny blocked ears. and for the next three days and still counting, i'm down with some funny infection in my inner ears and i still can't hear properly. and it kinda affects my already-very-hollow-brain. it still gives me some dizzy spells, err.. well, and now headaches. getting scary, you know. the next thing you never know, i might turn deaf! -touchwood-

and it seems like the bacteria/virus/whatever are feeding on my brain or something. can't remember anything about derivatives. like AHH!! social studies and amath tests on monday. or so i assume. so dead so screwed. might as well feed on my err lungs and stamina, so i'll have excuses not to run 2.4 km after i return school.

harhar. but i digress. the previous entry was about me finding out my brother being attached. i think i kinda exaggerated. but nevermind. it's just me okay? you've got a problem with that?!

i'm still thinking it's too amazing to have some crazy infection like me from a, well, sore throat. i had a sore throat last week, and then a flu, and then a very blocked nose, and it suddenly turned into very blocked ears, and then dizzy spells with some suspected symptoms of stomach flu and then there it is, i have my infection. hurs.

oh and guess what. i lost nearly 2 kg this month?! what the?! i mean i swear i wasn't on a diet. and i swear.. i didn't want it to happen. and i swear it was like a shock to me when the doc weighed me? and i weighed myself again and again? and it's still 46 kg?!

oh yar. i wanted to say something but i kept delaying it. anyway, to jiamin. for one, this is my blog, this is my opinion. but i'm not saying anything much about it. secondly, i hope you understand i just mention my not understanding why she likes him. and i did not mention anything about being against it. even if i am against it, so what? you can't stop me from being so anyway. i guess i have my freedom of speech and feeling towards something, haven't i? and my definition of "obsession" is having an excessively attraction to/interest with. so i do not think it's a harsh word to use. it's not because we said too much about it that day anyway. i'm always curious as to why people are crazily-obsessed [yet again]/infatuated with someone else. i can tell you straight into your face or anyone else's that i do not understand van's obsession with energy too. or maybe meixian's infatuation with jay chou. and definitely, tzekwan idolising that leslie person. even if the reasons are like conspicuous, they're talented, have/had achievements and sometimes good-looking sometimes not. still, i do not see the point where they have to be so crazy over them, get it? i mean we're of the same species, aren't we? but anyway, the problem's with me. not them, yea? maybe i'm just too dense to comprehend, and i'm not against it. seriously.

i'm kinda into fan-fic now. nice to read. x) but i still can't really figure out who the hell they're talking about. nonetheless, they're quite good.

i wanna go out. i wanna watch something. 50 first dates or the prince and me or aiya. whatever it is. but i can't. fearing that i would faint on the way to somewhere. and there's the angklung concert in sentosa today. x| i miss sentosa! to think i was so happy that the next week's coming so soon with no test and stuffs. was planning to go out and have fun. and loook at this. goddamnit. i wonder if pet, van, mich, mel, sue went to watch 50 first dates without me already. x( you know how sickening it is?!

on a happier note, 1 more month to my sweet 16th birthday! not exactly looking forward to it somehow. i mean, i can't feel the vibes yet. maybe i will sometime soon.

aiya. my brain's not working at all when i'm sick. can't remember anything already. will update if i can remember. or when i feel like it again.

heaven by your side;
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