__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Thursday, July 29, 2004

ooo fuck. i'm seriously in deep shit now. my activity point!! x( i should have just gone for track finals yesterday. and have fun getting all drenched in my err.. uniform. yes. but i ponned school. so it's just weird that i go. then again, if i went, my reason would be because i need the point oh-so desperately. okay whatever. let's just hope i can get julia to help me do something about my record. fine. i'm majorly contradicting myself. like i care. sigh. retarded rg for all these screwed-up flawed systems. and we're the ones suffering when they screw up. i wouldn't have given a damn about this if they're not complusory and they don't affect my cca points. but reality bites. they do!! they should be smarter if they really wanna real supporters. like not those so-called multi-taskers and err silent-whatever. i mean, c'mon the school should have a lil confidence in her girls man. they'll go down to support if they really wanna support and they'll cheer like totally enthusiastically. yupyup.

anyway. my msn's fixed. by yours truly. how smart can i get eh eh. xp so now i can chat! another major distraction. surprise surprise. people actually do notice that i haven't been online for eons. aww. how observant how sweet. haha. okay ziying said that it's because i used to be online so often. so it's amazing that i could stay/stayed offline for like 4 solid months! but people like glen that i seldom talk to now actually noted. cool huh. miss talking to people like.. well, loads! haha. oh got to know some new people. it's just weird how they can know me huh. okay now i mean, nevermind. let's just say it was even more queer that i could actually talk to them.

last week and this week were hectic. yes. no actually it's only last week that's very very busy. this week. haha. what's there to be occupied with anyway. was absent for 2 days. 'cause i had flu. a very bad one. okay but i had like tonnes of tests. and physics mock practical exam this saturday!! -faint-

oh and monday.. ziying and i had some fun. seriously she's really really comical and sounded like an air-head.. 15/3 = 3. where got wrong?! that's the classic man. orchard library isn't a very conducive place to study. i can't study there. end up playing and playing. and talking rubbish. haha. think we should go esplanade the next time okay?! that was the best study group together ever. and i think some people's smarter than me. okay at least more prepared than me for the upcoming exams. demoralising.

FRYday was good. fun and all. well, the food fair was. our class and 401 and 403 were like making candy floss and popcorns. i think we're like the top earner or something. and i swear the queue was like really long and the juniors were really really patient to have waited from like god-knows-when. anyway, i was one of those making candy floss. i'm too sick of it now though. but it's fun making them. twisting and turning. x))) though we're quite inhygenic i think. aiya whatever. and how shocking. our combined class skit actually won the third prize. i thought they were quite amusing. at least better than some other classes i've absolutely no idea what they were doing. and they're given like sucha great theme. and ours, of all things, antartica. har har. oh and i ran away from xinyi and yihui. didn't sell anything for library. claiming that i was needed at my class's stall. haha. which obviously wasn't a fact at all since i'm never in the committee. but the point is, i escaped from doing library duties and what not. the other stalls were quite nice i guess. and you'll only see weird and strange people around sometimes that's all. ah. and obviously i wasn't in my ethnic costume. wasn't in the right mood to. wasn't enthu enough.

and it's hilarious i tell you. something happened. michelletan saw -censored- in our school office and she just kept hiding away from him. i've no idea how come she's such a HUGE reaction when she sees -censored- everytime. and she claimed that she's not shy. my foot! and then melissaguay and i were like talking about -censored- and how she met him in espressione i think and then i was saying how i've like bumped into him several times in may and we were just chatting afterall we went for math immersion together. so we're like clearing up our stalls and i was just walking around helping out here and there and to my horror, okay actually not that horrified, it was more of shocked. i saw -censored- walk past. and i was like dumbfounded. coincidental or what. seriously, i'il never ever doubt about "speaking of the devil" again. so i told mel that she gotta turn and see something, and she actually jumped! then she got too shocked or excited i don't know and she was like xO and then she was like deciding whether we should shout out his name and she just went "-CENSORED-" before i could actually do it with her. so he turned. and melguay waved. and standing there like a retard, i thought the best thing was to wave back too. and he waved. mhmm. michelletan and i think the same. think he grew chubbierr. in other words, fatter. that's the retribution for commenting how heavy i was last time after carrying me. hah! okay i shouldn't be ungrateful eh. sigh. so much about -censored- haha. i think i sound like i'm a boy-crazy. no. it's just so incredible how he just suddenly appears in my life again after more than a year.

oh and did i mention, it just brings a smile on my face whenever an old friend calls or sms-es or email-s just to check on me or just simply says that he/she still remembers me. or that he/she saw me somewhere. it's just nice to be remembered and to know that your name's still in his/her contact list. x) okay. it doesn't have to be old, just a friend will do. x))) whee. it's quite heart-warming.

anyway. library sec 4 farewell. got it over and done with. no bonds no nothing. to think i actually wasted $10.50 on them. and all i got was a test-tube filled with some stuffs. okay it's of some sentimental value since it's done by yihui. and there's pizza. yes i suspect almost all their budget were spent on pizza. how great. and so much for being a SEC 4 farewell party huh. okay no more comments. i'm no more related to library in any way. and i hope i won't have to come down for library camp next year. no one would probably remember me anyway.

and it just pisses me off how alinawee wanted me to skip 2.4 and now she insists that i do it next week or the week when we're having prelims. great. and i'm now no longer 16 and the 5 items gonna be harder and thank god michelletan says that the run would be slower but i swear i'll find a way to get a permanent mc and flash it right into her face and stomp off like no one's business. and then i'll just sit and get all flabby but she shouldn't come and bother me 'cause it's not my problem that i'm all that unhealthy 'cause i've got a permanent mc. the pe department should really fuck off and get off my back. all those silly ideas and systems they have thought up and implemented are nothing but bullshit seriously. UGH. fuck. and for goodness sake it's just p-h-y-s-i-c-a-l e-d-u-c-a-t-i-o-n!! what's so great about them. damn!

anyway, screwed up my mocks badly. bleh. think i should just go study and no more pool on friday with terence. yes. no more. and then. i'll mug and mug and mug. and there'll be no more remorse. yes. danen says that i can do it. haha. should trust him eh. afterall he played so much more than me when he's having his Os. okay. and i'll have to pass the papers to chongxun sometime next week. but i can't decide. thanks to pft. then i might meet huichun for a movie. but it's so sinful. okay i think i should just shut up and study for physics mocks now. and try to think of a way to score in NE quiz. HAH.

heaven by your side;
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