__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Sunday, October 03, 2004

so.. blue concert was pretty okay. i expected something more than that, but ohwells, that's what will happen when you pay like say, 26 bucks for one ticket. how cheapskate can we can. however, i think we're still very very lucky. i think we got shifted down to the seats which were supposed to be like 40, 50++ dollars. and that's, a totally great bargain. like come to think of it, siokkhoon, naomin and their friends paid more than we did and apparently they seemed to get lousier seats than us. i wasn't very hyped up like what i thought i would when i reached there. the waiting was so awfully painful that it dampened my mood totally. and it's not like i can go mad when there's someone beside me that i felt completely weird with that day. i only got a bit, i emphasise again, A BIT excited over you make me wanna and all rise, which i thought the live version totally sucked to the core.

and it makes me wonder why i should talk to people that i've absolutely no interest in talking to/being friends with/going out with. and the more important factor would be, i feel weird and uncomfortable with, no matter how much we've talked over the phone and stuffs like that. i'm dao-ing all of a sudden. which makes me sound/look like a crazy nonsensical bitch. with extremely bad mood-swings. which i am actually. oh and not forgetting, a hypocrite.

and i'm sick of myself for being a great nice friend. i shall just go back to the boring old me. and then idiots won't assume and call me a stupid buaya/buayee whatever the difference is. or even think that i've some special funny relationship with some people i'll never be interested in. JUST because i'm too nice they're taking me for granted.

past few days were kinda fun. and a tad wild. i really spent like big bucks on my prom dress, the matching necklace, earrings, heels, shawl and what not. it's kinda fun to be girly like once in a while for me. oh and obviously i went totally crazy. retail therapy's good man. okay but i'm seriously broke now. like my dress's $103, necklace's $29.90, earrings cost $18? heels $49.90, shawl $29.. and that mini abercrombie skirt which cost around $45? and the white and black tops i bought $28. oh but i did not forget about my studies. i think i spent like another $50 on guidebooks and tys.

and i'm gonna get that daniel yam's bag the saleswoman recommended that day. 29 bucks. hmmm.

i think my make-up's gonna be free, zing! not like yours. xp the person's supposed to be my neighbour's sister. and she's working at mary chia, she's kinda some expert. so that's good for me. and my mum said i can save the money [like maybe 30 bucks?] for my hair. like styling and highlighting and all those funny shits?! totally cool.

and i've to come back to reality i guess.

my prelims. i don't know what to think. just pray hope they're good people and they're not gonna harm me and diminish my hopes of getting into vj the first three months. either vj or acj? or tj? don't know la.

and i'm working darn hard for the upcoming Os so that i might get into rj or something. gonna be superduper ultra muggertoad. don't laugh.

seriously i think that eric lee from rjc's superr funny. i wanna be taught by him. but then again, he's teaching geog, and i'll never be interested in geography. and another thing i'm aiming for the science stream, unless i'm doing odd combi. so.. i dunno. rj's attractive in the sense that the school's so big and new, but it's hard to get in and very far from my house. vj on the other hand's like very near, but it seems old and small and eww. but zihua and a few others are going there. x|

oh i think i wanna do double math. a bit hard only. and physics. i'm not sure about the last subject. sigh. maybe econs? i'll never ever do bio. okay. so maybe i might try chem if i can't do physics. i don't know seriously.

i better shut up and go study my physics. hoho.

heaven by your side;
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