__________a n g e l in need of a direction

Thursday, August 25, 2005

haven't been blogging lately.

i haven't really sorted out all my thoughts and stuff. but i guess i'll just have to take one step at a time, and figure out what's best for me simultaneously.

but somehow there's this sudden thought that i'm just totally giving up and resigning to my fate already. to the extent of not wallowing in self-pity anymore and just living for the sake of, well, living.

i'm not even thinking of ranting in this blog anymore. which probably's well the main reason why i'm not even blogging.

___ thinks i've changed. to a more depressed me. i guess it's true, 'cause i realised i'm starting to think too much and getting uber sensitive over something/anything very insignificant.

i feel like a hermit sometimes. i'm hiding way too much in the shell already. i'm beginning to love staying in my room and doing whatever i want. and something happy about locking myself in my room, at least i don't have to entertain anyone 'cept myself, and the room's pretty much self-sufficient, with food, water, the tv and discman, the homework and the necessities to indulge myself with, even if it's the simplest pleasure like munching on chips watching trashy shows.

school's sucha drag and it's getting tougher to handle everyone throwing shits at you trying to get you down, even if it's unintentionally.

the flu and depression bugs are going around i think, take care everyone.

ohwells. why am i even complaining? at least there's a regular dosage of sugar rush nowadays. haha. i know i'm a sucker at it, but still, i can't help it. (:

heaven by your side;
x 11:35 pm